kaylee34's Journal

Tonight I am just sad & tired & emotional! The pain of infertility has just worn me down. I'm sick of everyone around me being preg. & as much as I love & want a baby I can hardly look or hold them anymore. To top it off read this . . . . . . . (Before I tell the story let me just say I love my family & nieces & nephews but that doesn't mean that it doesn't break my heart when things like this happen). . . My brother-in-law had a one night stand with one of his friends and now she is preg. They aren't planning on dating or getting married -very cool! Seriously!?!? My hubby & I try for years & years and get nothing & he goes and has a one night stand and poof a baby! That is NOT how life should be. Not to mention the fact that my other brother-in-law is also expecting a baby with his wife (this will be thier 5th kid)! I am happy for them but it just sucks that we haven't been given that chance. I sometimes just want to stop trying but I want a child too bad to stop trying. I hate this gloom & doom feeling that I'm having tonight but after years of trying and having no luck it is hard to be possitive........this sucks.....