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Auzgurl 
7:40pm, September 21, 2009
Today I have been GF 100 days!!!!!
The days have been adding up and I almost forgot that I had hit the 100 mark. A very good feeling not to be focussing ALL the time on gambling. That is not to say I am not working on recovery every single day. I am and it takes it out of me for sure - exhausting but worth more than a work out!
Today was a GOOD day. I almost feel guilty at the moment having this time to myself and feeling so calm and organised. I am able to manage my days and squeeze in stuff for me too which I am loving. I guess my life has been a little strange over the last few months, dealing with a different country, my brothers and the stress of illness.
My brother Dave is going well BTW. He is getting stronger by the day. he is still at home but continues to heal. It will be a while before he isreally out in the big wide world. At the moment his immunities are so depleted. He wouldn't be able to cope. In himself though he is good.
Today I started knitting again. I am knitting something for my daughter, she loves things that are a little different and I thought the only way to really be different is to make it myself, it;s a lovely pattern and I am enjoying seeing it unfold. Knitting is very calming, I used to do it a lot pre gambling days and I am rediscovering those things I once enjoyed again.
I went to the Farmer's market today. It was wonderful. I love being surrounded by all the fresh produce and people. I now have fresh flowers on my table in beautiful reds and organges and I have dinner planned. I bought a gorgeous sauce to go with some chicken and pasta and a lovely lemon tart with passionfruit! YUMBO! I love food, in fact I am passionate about it, only hope the waistline doesn't suffer too much. I will have to work out really hard on the bike this week. Normal days are good days. 100 "normal" days = a good feeling.
I hope you all had good days, I know there are some tricky situations out there, I am praying for you what ever your situation.
Hugs Suzi
Comments
Yeah! Congrats on the 100 days! As for the Baileys celebration- I wish I had some and some of my friends here to help me celebrate the little milestones. It may not be much, but I am proud of my 13 days today. I am so glad to hear that your brother is doing well. It will take time but he will be his bossy self before you know it. You have made great sacrifices for your family and now you get to know the benefits. It is truly wonderful to see how your life has changed. Keep enjoying every "normal" day, as eventually they will add up to a lifetime.
purplecat
Hello to my new friend- congratulations on 100 days of recovery! Fantastic.....isn't it great being able to enjoy again the things that used to be part of our lives??? I used to like to crochet a bit myself... your flowers and the dinner sound really beautiful... lemon tart with passionfruit...oh my, how tantalizing.... :-) Hope you enjoyed your day....here's to 100 more beautiful days celebrating the art of living well....Dianne
DianneE
100 Days!! Yahoo!! That is just great. Your journal entries are so calming to me. I also knit - and do find it very calming as well. I want to tackle quilting next. My grandmother made beautiful quilts and it is always something I have wanted to do. Your dinner sounded wonderful - I hope it was. It sounds like you are at peace with yourself and I think that is one of the most important things in recovery. Keep up the great work Suzi - you are truly a special person! (Oh and so glad to hear about your brother as well!)
Crissy11
Hi suzi
You are doing unbelievably well. Being so calm is a real virtue. I can't wait to feel that calm and in control. Good luck with your knitting today. speak soon.
alzie2
Normal... lol One Hundred Days! That's wonderful, Suzi! First, thanks for the comment on my JE - Next, what is normal for me? It's not easy to focus on me because that was never normal behavior for me. I've always let some many things get in my way, in recovery I'm beginning to realize just how many. I'm doing little things I use to do before gambling, too. That feels good. I'm also doing things I've never done before, like focusing on me. That feels good, too. However, it's not the norm for me, so to me it's a bit frightening. Yet, still a part of my recovery. I'm beginning to use my courage to change the things I can, slowly and not perfectly. Knit on, Suzi... I love to create pretty, unique things, too. Love, Robin
Moyer
Congrat's on your 100 days. You are doing so good and we all are so proud of you. You sound if you have the perfect life. keep it up
Tessa
TKay
100 days! WOW!! Way to go girlfriend! I'm so so proud of you. You have grown so much the past few months. It is a wonderful feeling when our days aren't consumed with gambling. What a wonderful light shines in our life when we find old "loves". Peace and Love. Patty
mrsfroggie
CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR 100 DAYS GAMBLE-FREE!!!
liz417