Join Now
Auzgurl 
7:40pm, September 21, 2009
Day 16, GF!
The day started today with some urges, usually I would allow these to seed in my brain and the plan the day around gambling... NOT today. My son had to be taken down to the ferry for a school excursion so I put my gym gear on, I have been so slack with the gym for a while and had great intentions. Today I went and felt great. I pushed weights and felt great. I went home, even though there is a venue I play at really close to the gym and the pub was open, I got in the car. I detoured past the store, bought party things for my girl got dinner planned and waalaa I'm home.
I am fully aware that the gambling urges will still be there and in no way think i am cured. I am just so happy to be feeling! not worrying about the latest binge, allowing the sunshine to grace me and enjoy my life.
I am considering going to the garden shop later, i love the idea of gardening just never seem to find the time to do it when so much of it has been wasted in the past. I actually can't believe how much time I have now on my hands. I always seem to squeeze eveything in but was always breathless.
Oh i had a lovely surprise waiting for me at home. My friend from NZ had posted me the journal we share. We post a journal to each other full of our news every few weeks or so. i just love it when it comes and there is usually a surprise inside also. I love hearing her news. It's so good to be able to share mine, I hope one day to be able to share this journey too.
Last night I was speaking to my hubby about our money. Our Visa is due tomorrow and i am still in charge of the finances. It has been a problem in the past but not anymore ( i hope). It was the first time in a while when I wasn't making excuses or worried that he might ask to look at the bank statement and then I would have to show him the spending, over the past 2 weeks we have saved money rather than spent it.
My birthday is in a couple of weeks and I am hoping to be gamble free...just for today I will not gamble.
Thank you are my friends for the great support, it means so much to know I am not alone. Hugs S
Comments
You are definitely not alone and you are doing great! Keep it up and keep enjoying your life!
purplecat
It never ceases to amaze me, as I progress through recovery, how much I had allowed my addiction to take away from my life.All the things I could have done, things I could have seen....all lost in that fog .....
No more! Not another cent, not a moment, not one more memory. I never want to feel like that, ever again.
Today, I have other choices, and just for today, I have no time for gambling.
eastwester
You have the perfect attutide! Knowing that it is good to be feeling, and knowing that you are on a journey- that's exactly right. :)
vanillabeane
Wow, you controlled your urge to not go into that casino. You are doing great!
TODAY is the best day for commencing to improve. Just for today I will not gamble. Hugs Laura
westy1
I am so proud of you!!!! 16 days is great!! You have such positive energy and I really look up to you. Especially the fact that you have been honest with the urges you still get and than choose to not gamble. Today is a new beginning for me all over, but this time around it's going to be different, I look forward to reaching my 16th day and more! Today has been day one for me all over again, I'm not giving up on myself this time around. Take care of yourself.
avellagirl23
Great Job -- we are with you -- I was one in the past to hide bills and lie about what I owed --- It feels good to be able to pay bills on time -- How many people - say it is good to pay bills -- One day at a time (One Birthday at a Time)
bmack
I;m so proud of you! Keep it up you're doing so well!!! Peace and Love.
mrsfroggie