Auzgurl's Journal

Day 2.

Here I am again, and I must admit uplifted already. I have people who have commented on my life! They have also added me as freinds...yahoo. I really do believe in the power that these little contraptions have ...computers ( If used for the right medium) It is wonderful to bridge the miles with just a few lines...thank you.

At the moment i really feel this is all about me. I want to be able to reach out to others and i know there will be a time to do that but today it's about my life and my journey. I can imagine getting past this. I know i can.

Yesterday went well and a whole day free of gambling. Tuesday for some reason is a day when I would go to a gambling venue and be there until the kids come home from school, to pass the time and feel like I was having me time, all the time feeling guilty at the time I was wasting and the vicious circle that I had entered into once again.  I didn't go yesterday..yes, i had the urge. I wanted to go but i didn't.

I walked yesterday. Exercise i am hoping is going to be the key to be success. It's Spring here now in Auz and i really just want to grasp hold of all things new. Yesterday i walked and listened to tunes on my i pod. It was so enjoyable. I felt a few sprinkles of rain come down as i was walking.  It felt good to be experiencing those things that are real and tangible, getting joy out of real things and not in the make believe.

Hubby is still away. I do miss him while he is away. I have discovered a few things, i need to be me. I am so often an extention of him and i just want to find me.

I have a plan today. I want to walk, make dinner,( it's already planned) tidy the house, clean floors, boring but needs to be done, go to the Gym and maybe the garden centre. I need to post some letters too.  I think the way i will beat this is to plan my weeks, the time when the kids and hubby are not home. plan plan plan.

..here's to the day