heartgirl's Journal

This year has brought about many blessings and you are among them.  Never could have imagined what wonderful friendships and support have unfolded here.  You and DS are one of the many blessings I am thankful for at this time of Thanksgiving.

Although I am struggling to overcome an illness that has kept me home and in bed for 3 days, I am grateful for my overall health and the improved well being from a significant weight loss.  I don't believe I've been this healthy in years and it is my desire to help others know this is possible that brings about the challenges and exchange of information.  Paying it forward is one of the greatest privileges we have.  It seems the truest way to help ones self is to help another.

Finally, after just returning from Kansas City this past weekend and a heartfelt meeting with my daughter, son-in-law and four grandchildren .. I am again reminded of  what a precious gift they are.  This past weekend was one of celebration and healing as my newfound brother and sister-in-law traveled with me and met my daughter and her family for the first time.  What treasured memories were formed and what a depth of love and healing occurred as we explored pictures, stories, similarities and found out where my grandson's height came from and where I got my eyes.  While I had the most cherished father who always loved me and was there at every turn .. and one who I would not trade for anything .. there is always a hole that is created when you do not know a biological parent. 

This may be something only those of us who face this can understand, but no matter how fulfilled you are, this hole exists until the keys are found that unlock the secrets and your heart is filled with answers and healing occurs.  This has been the blessing for me and my brother and he is one of my greatest treasures.  Not that Richard will ever replace the brother I lost 12 years ago in an auto accident, my beloved Billy, but I can't tell you enough how much his love and acceptance ... and heartfelt strong and secure hugs ... has helped heal the loss I've felt for so long. 

Thanks so much for allowing me to share in your journeys and to be a part of your lives and for allowing me the privilege of sharing mine with you.  It is an honor I don't take lightly and at this time of Thanksgiving .. I count you among my blessings.

Heartfelt (((Hugs))) and please know you are not alone .. looking forward to continuing our journeys through the holidays together and forward into the new year.  We are so much better together than we are apart and we can do this!

Ranae