Cant handle anymore
April 30, 2009 1:29pm
My bf said he forgave me then he broke up with me later that day ( after I told him about my grandmothers health). So he was aware of that when he …
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tearsofblood
6:18pm, November 9, 2009
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About Me
tearsofblood
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About Me
I moved out when i was 17 and worked for a year, and now I am graduating from college this month. Ive been struggling with si and depression. My parents just kind of ignore it. I also struggle with taking to many pills and overdosing. My bf of a year (i put my heart and soul into the relatinship) broke up with me, and I feel like i am drifting away from any friends I have. My life is slowly falling apart.
I moved out when i was 17 and worked for a year, and now I am graduating from college this month. Ive been struggling with si and depression. My parents just kind of ignore it. I also struggle with taking to many pills and overdosing. My bf of a year (i put my heart and soul into the relatinship) broke up with me, and I feel like i am drifting away from any friends I have. My life is slowly falling apart.
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Interests
Reading, internet, swimming, stuff like that.
Reading, internet, swimming, stuff like that.
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Recent Activity
November 14
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tearsofblood gave ShazzerInc a hug 5:57pm
Just been working lots.…
November 9
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tearsofblood updated their status 6:18pm
Tired and worried about money. Sanity or having a roof over my head...?…
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tearsofblood gave SlovakDJH a hug 6:18pm
Sooo true!…
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Hi, how are u today?…
November 4
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tearsofblood gave ShazzerInc a hug 2:30pm
I was a student so now I have big debt, stupid stupid money. How r u today?…
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Journal
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Cheated
April 27, 2009 7:52pm
So i went and cheated on my bf with a 40 year old man (im 20), i dont know what i was thinking. We didnt do "it" but we kissed and …
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ANGRY!!
April 23, 2009 6:33pm
So it was my one year anniversary with my bf, and he forgot. He said he just didnt look at the date that day and thats why he forgot. Then after i …
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Alone...really alone...
March 31, 2009 7:16pm
I had to leave my boyfriend (who I love so much) and all my friends and move to a different town. I just wish that life didnt have to change, I know …
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Sad
March 2, 2009 10:29am
I hate life, it makes you think your happy for alittle while and then steals all that hapiness away. I am so depressed today I just want to die, I …
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Hugbook
Little Love
Hey was in the hospital for a week passed out at school. Bp went way down.
love ya eades-
Hug
Hey had a bad day, just trying to make iot better, how about you? Been upto much?
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Rainbow
It's hard to stay in line, keeping marching in line in this life. I know it's necessary, but it seems like the police and other authorities are just sitting there, waiting for you to f***-up...good luck with your money issues...they are waiting on the horizon for me as well, I fear...
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Hug
I hate the debt too. hope all is well with you.....HUGS.
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Ray of Sunshine
I am hanging in there just so tired
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Self-Injury
ive been doing it for what seems like forever, ive tried quiting but i always go back to it. i started because i never felt good enough or in control of my life.
Treatments
- Ativan Working / Worked
- works well to calm me down, but very addictive
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- worked but i had to move and looking for counselling in my new town
- Squeezing Ice Somewhat Helpful
- somewhat helpful but doesnt really work because i need to see the blood
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- talking helps but if i really want to cut i will
Close Anxiety
Treatments
- Ativan Working / Worked
- very addictive,works well
- Breathwork Working / Worked
- works well but you really have to concentrate on it
- Klonopin Working / Worked
- worked really well, wish i still had a perscription
- Remeron Working / Worked
- worked but made me to tired, take it occasionally now for sleep
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) Depressionmy family has a history of depression and i got really bad for me the summer after i graduated highschool, i had to be hospitalized, because of my si and taking pills for no reason. Since then i have had to go to the hospital due to overdosing but havnt stayed more than one night. I just want to get better, and am trying but sometimes feels like a losing battle.
Treatments
- Celexa Somewhat Helpful
- it worked well at first then stopped
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- was helpful
- Effexor Somewhat Helpful
- worked realy well at first, lost weight and was feeling better but then after being on it for quit some time it stopped working
- Prozac Too Soon to Tell
- im starting it, *fingers crossed*
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- very important, u need more than drugs to try and recover
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- 300mg daily, took the edge of things, had less panic attacks but ive had the dose incresed up to the maximum because it wasnt working, stil isnt and waiting to see my doctor to change it. i gained weight which really sucked, and lately ive been having major migranes daily. have since quit it.
- Writing Working / Worked
- ive starting keeping a journal again, i have in the past and it did help somewhat so i fiqured why not, plus this website is really helpful.
Open Stress Management
i get stressed out really easily and sometimes it just seems so overwhelming.
Treatments
- Music Working / Worked
- music is so helpful!!
- Patience Working / Worked
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
- i fiqure skate so sometimes it helps sometimes it just angers me
Open Family Issues
my moms and aunt or major control freaks and cant accept the fact im depressed and have some problems, they wont even talk about it. But they always know exactly what im doing even though im in college. i have a very strained relationship with them. my dads a workacholic and was never really there for me, and still isnt. since i became a teenager ive always had a hard time getting along with them.
Treatments
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
tearsofblood hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open College Stress
im totally stressed out this semester. thats all i feel like saying
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
Open Personality Disorders
I have BPD. It is hell, and i would not wish it on anyone. I have had some really low points and hope the future is better but i have my doubts.
Treatments
- Talking Working / Worked
- Dialectical Behavioral Therapy Too Soon to Tell
- Going to be startig it soon hope it helps!
Open The Financial Crisis
tearsofblood hasn’t entered any details for this support group.
