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Hi,

I am sorry I have not been on here much. I will return all of your hugs in a minute :) It is nice of you to think of me.

One thing led to another and well lets start

June 1, 2007: I found out that my landlord aka slumlord got into my electric account, she told me herself and then kicked me out all of the sudden saying I lied to her when I didn't --thats the short version of it. She was very mean and abusive to me. She told me all of these things to get me to take the place, lied about the safety of the place and neighborhood, then took told me something just the opposite of what she said I could have, so I am back down in Frederick MD now at my old place in the smaller room renting. Honestly? Tony never kept his promise and moved in and I am not good at being all by myself so I was getting depressed up there all by myself anyways.

Since about 2 months ago Tony has gone down hill both mentally and physically. His problem feeling certain areas got worse to the point where he cant even feel you know what or you know what else, so he is afraid to be intimate otherwise he might mess himself. However he didnt tell me this until the other day, he pretty much just stopped initiating hugs, kisses and attention. He told me they took his dignity and he feels humiliated. They took his workers comp to try and scare him to give up the fight and to try and video him going back to work so they could win. The months of arbitration are wearing on him as neither side gives an inch.

It got so bad he broke up with me several times and made excuses why he couldn't see me when I asked. We are sorta together, but hanging on by a thread.

Now he found out he may have lung cancer and he hasnt wanted me at any of his appointments. I feel horrible.

So it doesn't get lost in the shuffle.

Hi,
I thank you for caring about your net friends, but if you googled the key words, usernames and other before sending you would see most of the time these are hoaxes or mean tricks played on ex's to get them back for something.

In the mean time these nasty rumors started by ex's affect everyone who receives them. What was sent yesterday wasn't just something us women would say "OMG girl don't date him" but more of a "Now we're scared for our lives thing" These nasty ex's tend to go to far with these stories just to get back at their ex's and in the end who did it hurt most? US (I.E. How many of our hearts raced and looked behind us, walking faster if someone came near because of that rumor spread) If the person starting would think how what they send would affect more then just their ex's most of the time they would never hit the send button!

Now considering my night route I am quitting goes through two dangerous neighborhoods and I have been approached 9 times in the last month. NONE of which I was told about before taking the position! How do you think I felt already being scared every night and then hearing that?

Then, I think of the abused women and the ones who went or knew someone who dealt with things like this in their lives.. How do they feel to get this email? Do they relive their own horrifying experiences?

How much pain has the nasty writer of this rumor caused? Does this person care about other people at all?

Internet is way too easy to hide behind. Normally relaxed and chilled respectful people come on here and turn into Monsters..

So please, before you pass it along, google it, then if you only see copies of what you got and it isnt on any major known news sites then save us all reliving pain or adding of pain in our lives ok?

I ask that you pass this on to everyone via email and websites like this that you know. Let's all be responsible for each others sanity. Let's all take care, think first and show we really love one another.

Thanks,
Crissy
Posted on 05/29/07, 04:05 pm