Saturday, November 14th
November 14, 2009 1:53pm
Struggling to remain positive. Things look bleak.
I hope God will lift my spirits.
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SearchingAndWaiting
2:28am, August 22, 2009
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About Me
SearchingAndWaiting
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About Me
I'm a 31-year-old, heterosexual guy. For most of my life, I knew I would wait until I was married to have sex. That just felt right. In recent years, though, my desire to explore sexuality with a girl has grown. These days, I'm pretty sure it will happen before marriage, and I'm very sad to think it would be with someone who has already experienced it. I'm something of a hopeless romantic, a dreamer, a philosopher, and an explorer... I hope that sharing on this site will help meet my needs for self-expression, understanding, and compassion.
I'm a 31-year-old, heterosexual guy. For most of my life, I knew I would wait until I was married to have sex. That just felt right. In recent years, though, my desire to explore sexuality with a girl has grown. These days, I'm pretty sure it will happen before marriage, and I'm very sad to think it would be with someone who has already experienced it. I'm something of a hopeless romantic, a dreamer, a philosopher, and an explorer... I hope that sharing on this site will help meet my needs for self-expression,
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SearchingAndWaiting commented on their journal entry Saturday, November 14th 1:54pm
Let me add to that: I'm 31 and still haven't had sex. I feel so awful. I want to experience it so badly,…
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SearchingAndWaiting wrote a journal entry updating their Meditate for 50 evenings goal 1:53pm
Struggling to remain positive. Things look bleak.I hope God will lift my spirits.…
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Ray of Sunshine
Hi, thanks for the encouragement. It has been a bit of a struggle, but I believe I am making some gains in overcoming my anxiety, depression, and self-doubt. I want this relationship very much, so I'm going to fight (my depression) to make it work. Maybe one day I will even be strong enough to come off my medication.
I wish you much happiness, and thank you for keeping me in your thoughts. Stay strong, and may God bless and keep you always.-
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Please don't give up! God will give you the strength you need.
Little Love
Hey I commented on one of your journal entries. I dont find it shocking at all where you stand. I feel you are STRONG and the fact you have come this far is amazing! You are true to yourself and what you want and dont you settle for anything less no matter what media, society, women, men, or anything else ever tells you. You stay true to your goal of finding what you want and when you achieve it, please let us know so we can support and celebrate with you :)
Much Love Spread On Thick,
Krissy
Ray of Sunshine
hello there....
Thank you so much for joining the STRONGHOLD group it's very much appreciated. I hope all is well with you and that you have a wonderful day .
much hugs
christa
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Close Abstinence & Celibacy
I'm a 31-year-old, heterosexual guy. For most of my life, I knew I would wait until I was married to have sex. Recently, though, my desire to explore sexuality with a girl has increased to the point where I'm pretty sure I'm not going to wait. And to that end, I've done SOME stuff. But not everything. However, I still want us BOTH to be virgins the first time. I am very sad, because the prospect of finding that looks bleak.
Treatments
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
Close Anxiety
I'm really on this site for support in sexual abstinence. But I do suffer from anxiety. Sometimes I get nervous, and it just feels like it's out of my control. I hope this will change when I'm in a better "place" in my life. (If God wills it.)
Treatments
- Breathing Exercises Somewhat Helpful
- Meditation Working / Worked
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- Change ones way of thinking about something. This has helped but Im lacking motivation these days to go through the motions of doing a table in which I challenge automatic thoughts.
Open Depression
Type: Post Partum DepressionI'm going through a difficult time. I feel really alone... not understood enough, not appreciated enough.
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
I was emotionally abused by my father for years (not physically, save for one occasion). My faith in God has helped me enormously since then. I love life and believe in nonviolence; I wish only happiness to others.
Treatments
- Faith Working / Worked
- Forgiveness Working / Worked
- Leave Working / Worked
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Talking Working / Worked
Open Healthy Relationships
I'm struggling to have healthy, close friendships. I didn't think this would happen...
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