Journal Entry for February 3, 2008
February 3, 2008 8:23am
I should know by now that things can always get worse than you think. After reading my last journal entry, I can now add that we were denied our …
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mal4ever
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About Me
I've been married 22 years, have 2 kids. Haven't worked since '99 due to a mental health disability and as I close in on 50 I think my whole body is falling apart. I'm pretty quiet and shy but love to ride my motorcycle. Have had one since a teen growing up on a farm. Love cats. Miss physical activity due to physical health problems. Hate taking medicine all the time for so many things.
I've been married 22 years, have 2 kids. Haven't worked since '99 due to a mental health disability and as I close in on 50 I think my whole body is falling apart. I'm pretty quiet and shy but love to ride my motorcycle. Have had one since a teen growing up on a farm. Love cats. Miss physical activity due to physical health problems. Hate taking medicine all the time for so many things.
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Journal Entry for January 12, 2008
January 12, 2008 2:09pm
This last month has been one of the darkest periods in my life. My husband was fired after trying to return to work after having his knee replaced. …
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Journal Entry for December 21, 2007
December 21, 2007 9:03am
Dear God, Please bless everyone here at Daily Strength as I have made many online friends here and they are all struggling with something just like I …
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Journal Entry for December 16, 2007
December 16, 2007 11:37pm
What a wonderful Christmas this is going to be. Randy (my husband of 22+ years) just got fired as he was coming back to work after 12 weeks off …
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Journal Entry for December 11, 2007
December 11, 2007 12:23am
I wish I knew if "nineteen" followed through with her suicide plans a couple of weeks ago. I haven't seen anything from her and am so …
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Close Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS)
ON 7/7 this year, I developed a stomach ache a few hours after eating at a new restaurant. Eight hours later I was thinking about the ER because my stomach was on fire. Since then, I've fought bloating, horrendous gas, diarrhea/frequent bowel movements/constipation, and abdominal tenderness. All the tests my doctor has done since it began have been negative. I see a G.I. specialist in 3 weeks.
Treatments
- Probiotics Considering
- I don't know if it's helping or not but I want to give it a fair chance.
- Benefiber Working / Worked
- Has helped with constipation. I take 2 tsp. twice daily.
- Probiotics Working / Worked
- It is a chewable tablet, meant to be taken once a day, but I usually take twice a day. It relieves stomach pain almost instantly.
Close Back Pain
I'm 48,married 22 years,2 boys,just sent the first to college over 500 miles from home. Younger son is a junior in high school. I grew up on a farm, loved it, was a tomboy then and always will be. Probably where my back problems all started but I wouldn't change a thing about my past activities!
Treatments
- Chiropractic Adjustment Working / Worked
- chiropractic worked until the last year.Then it only increased my pain because he could not get my lower back to adjust at all
- Darvon Working / Worked
- Helps immensely along with Ibuprofen in between doses
- Epidural Injection Working / Worked
- Have had 2 since early July. Am doing fairly well since 2nd shot but feel that sometime in the next 6 weeks I will need another. Happy with results
- Hydrocodone Working / Worked
- Worked but my doc was too worried about addiction to let me continue taking it so switched me to Darvocet.
- Ibuprofen Working / Worked
- Helps along with narcotics
- Physical Therapy Working / Worked
- I think it's helping but I'm also fighting irritable bowel syndrome so some of the exercises involving the deep abs are difficult to do because of frequent tenderness
- Stretching Working / Worked
- sometimes in the morning if I wake up with stiffness I will stretch for a few minutes and it helps.
- TENS Working / Worked
- LOVE IT!!! Had it in physical therapy and my therapist suggested getting a personal one. It is a wonderful device and would highly recommend it for anyone suffering from same conditions as I am.
Open Panic Attacks
Although I didn't know at the time, I began having attacks when I was 14. It wasn't until I was in my 30's that I was diagnosed with panic disorder,major depression, borderline personality disorder because of cutting, post traum.stress disorder and agoraphobia.Have been through many meds with no help,hundreds of hours of therapy, but am finally getting some relief with Lexapro and Klonapin. I'm now 48. What a way to live.(NOT!)
Treatments
- BuSpar Not Working
- Just one of many meds that didn't help at all. No side effects, just no help.
- Effexor Not Working
- Didn't help at all.
- EMDR Not Working
- shrink tried it with me briefly but I didn't really respond well to it no matter how hard I tried.
- Klonopin Working / Worked
- Works very well for me.Side effects are drowsiness, but I'm sort of used to it.
- Meditation Not Working
- I've tried that along with self hypnosis CDs for relaxation, etc. but panic attacks are too unpredictable to get as much benefit as I'd like.
- Patience Somewhat Helpful
- I've had to be patient as I was diagnosed as treatment resistant,so I gave it my best shot and continue to do so.
- Paxil Not Working
- Another med that didn't do a thing good or bad.
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- All the positive thoughts in the world can't overcome panic attacks that come on so unexpectedly. Very frustrating.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Have been in therapy for over 10 years. I suppose it's helped some, but not sure.
- Seroquel Not Working
- No help, no side effects.
- Xanax Working / Worked
- My shrink was worried about addiction and the fact that it is only short term relief so d/c'd it. I still have some but haven't taken it in months.
Open Self-Injury
I actually began self injury when I was 9 or 10 in an attempt to get my parents attention I guess. Growing up on a farm with no siblings or neighbors left me with my own imagination most of the time. I tried breaking my arm by hitting it against a fencepost but only got bruises. They went unnoticed. About 20 years later I discovered cutting and what a relief from rage it gave me. I haven't cut for about a year now but the urge has been strong in recent weeks.
Treatments
- Group Therapy Not Working
- I never felt comfortable in groups-something that began in childhood, so it was hard to get it to work for me.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Have been in therapy over 10 years. It has been helpful with many things, but when I am overwhelmed with emotion, especially rage, nothing helps.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- I've been labeled as treatment resistant, but have actually had some relief from Lexapro. My symptoms are probably under the best control they ever have been but I have a long way to go to feel like I have a place in this world. I'm not suicidal but I do find myself thinking about it quite a bit. Don't know why. The self harm has always been enough to keep me from actually thinking about a plan for suicide.
Open High Cholesterol
I'm a 48 y.o. married mom of 2. Today I got the results of my labwork and my cholesterol was 318 while my triglycerides were 380 so I was put on a high dose of Zocor. This is all new to me so I want to learn how to best manage my lifestyle and diet.
Treatments
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
- Zocor Working / Worked
