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11:39am, July 5, 2009
I woke up in pain where I couldnt catch my breath. I hate when my kidney acted up like that. I've been trying so hard not to let my health get me down. It so hard. I'm tired of missing out of life when I have so much going for me. I don't like looking in the mirror anymore seeing how terrible I look. I look so tired and worn out.
I guess I am feeling sorry for myself.
With so much plans going on trips for the next 6 months; sometimes I feel like I am not going to make it. It the feelings that keep coming over me lately. I don't want to let anyone down because of my health. It is not fair to them; they know I can't help it. I've shown in the past few weeks by pushing myself to do things I wanted to do. Im wondering if I am hurting myself. I had so much taking away or stolen from me that I want to live my life the way I wanted to live but my body just can't keep up. Dang if I do or dang if I don't. SIGH
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It's is a hard life we live, but we must be strong or we would have given up years ago!! I know what you mean when you say that life seems to be passing you by, it makes me so sad at times but it's so good that we found DS and each other. I'm not doing the best today either, I wrote about it in my journal if you want to take a peek.
Take care, I'll be thinking of you!
hugs Cathy
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