Lettetalk's Journal

I made a goal to myself a week ago to try to push on inspite of my pains. Whether I am physically or emotionally hurting, I dont want to stop.  Even though my body is screamin at me, I want to break down and cry.  Which I know would make my pain worse. Of course then the emotional roller coaster would kick in.  Arghh  I am still bound and determine to figure out a way to get my truths out there for my family to see.  Do I want to punish them?  Then is not my entirely intentions but to put stop on the rumors.  And stop them from hurting other people and tearing their lives apart.  I don't care if they hurt me but dont like seein others getting hurt. 

I often wondered how can people live with themselves or look in the mirror knowing what they are doing.  Then when tradegy strike they are riddle with guilts and regrets and play the victums.  Then they continue to do it over and over again; not learning from their mistakes.  I guess I will never figure it out