Journal

My friend from Vancouver has come to visit and my oh my has it been a fantastic voyage.

My friend has been around the world, comepeted in bodybuilding, and brought to me a new sense of belief in myself.  He has a power like few people that walk this earth have, and for this I am greatful.

He has begun to teach me how to refine my diet, get rid of processed food, and brought a filtration system that makes water actually healthy again.

I feel revitalized, refreshed, and happy in less than 24 hours.

I want to do better for my body, mind and spirit I need to.

It is amazing how one person can make such a complete impact in your life time and time again.  I could never acheive what he has with his physique, or the enlightenment he has acheived in the hils of India, but if I even make it 1% I will be that much better.

Hope you all are well.

Ahhh, there is a new year upon us.  A time to make changes that will make us better, stronger, happier and healthier.

I want to make myself promises this year that I keep.  I do want to be in better shape physically, but getting mentally stronger is in desperate need. 

I have a genetic condition that I can not control, and want to love for me.  Bumps or no bumps.  Spots or more spots, I am just me.  I get told all the time that I am smart, funny, and attractive and this year I will believe it.  I would love to be able to stop men dead in their tracks, but I will settle for finding one that loves me for me.  BTW the relationship I was trying to nurture ended, oh well.

I will no longer be a door mat.  I will not be paralyzed by the issues of my divorce because it was not my fault.  So what if my ex meets someone first?  So what if I have to wait to find that someone?  He has his own problems, and they are not my own.  There will always be the hurt because of the infidelity, and walking away from his family, but my heart and mind will heal in time.

I will stop eating things that are not good for me.  No more processed foods high in sugar.  No more ordering out all the time and more home cooked meals.  I will have my body back even if it takes until next year... but pray it will come at least by April.

I wish all of my friends here at DS the strength they need to stay true to themselves.  Whatever your station is now in life, there could be another train along at any minute to take you someplace new.  Do not always accept things for what they are, because you have the power to change almost anything.  Here at DS it seems that there is a lot of people who help others, and that is one thing I am thankful for in 2007, and that is finding this site.

The best things in life often happen by suprize.

Good wishes, strength and prayers to you all.  Here is for a great 2008. 

I have realized that I spend too much time worrying about NF.

I wish that I did not have it, but I do.  My life is not worse off because of it, and God has granted me this life so I must treat it with respect.  

As mentioned, I guess my NF is mild.  I really do not have any pain, just a whole lot of bumps that even really can not be felt but only seen when the light is on them.

I have met someone and he has seen the bumps and he said he could care less, so lets hope it stays that way.  

I am working hard to love myself, and accepting the NF is the way to go.

We are not freaks, just people with a few extra bumps.