Journal Entry for September 6, 2009
September 6, 2009 6:40am
Progress
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Current Weight (Lbs)
206
Body Mass Index (BMI)
31
LorrenaB
6:14am, July 28, 2009
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About Me
LorrenaB
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About Me
So.....My name is Lori. I am29. I have two little girls and a husband. 1985 Dad passed...started many chemical imbalnces in my head 1993 Srated experimenting with alcohol my mom had in her kitchen cubby hole for cooking...filled bottles up with water 1996 First Suicide attempt, but not idealization...diagnosed with Major Depression & started "cutting" 1999 Birthed Timberly-sober for 10 months during pregnancy 2001 Easy access and availability of alcohol...started drinking everyday because I was "free". First in-house alcohol treatment 2002 Diagnosed with Bipolar N.O.S...cutting got worse...first black out from consumption of alcohol 2003 Quit cutting miracuously- started going to AA & NA... 2005 Birthed Maya-sober 10 months....quit going to NA & AA!!! Drinking worsened and was hospitalized for many times. Diagnosed with OCD and Personality Disorder N.O.S. with traits of a certain one. 2006 First session of I.O.P. for drinking 2007 Relapsed after 3 months. Second session of I.O.P. Sober 3 months... 2008 Tolerance increased to at least one liter of Brandy a day because a case of beer wasn't getting me dwhere I wanted to be. 2009 Introduced to a Unitarian Universalist Church Lost my oldest daughter in September 2008. My first day sober is 2/1/09. Working on sobriety each day. Isn't difficult for me this time except for certain days of the month. OCD has resurfaced when I quit drinking Personality Disorder makes it hard for me to get attached and know when people actually do care. Working everyday, reading everyday, learning everday what the professionals haven't taught me. HAve been to a MD, Psychiatrist, Case Manager, Therapist for Mental HEalth, COunselor for AOD, OB/Gyn & Dentist since I got sober.
So.....My name is Lori. I am29. I have two little girls and a husband. 1985 Dad passed...started many chemical imbalnces in my head 1993 Srated experimenting with alcohol my mom had in her kitchen cubby hole for cooking...filled bottles up with water 1996 First Suicide attempt, but not idealization...diagnosed with Major Depression & started "cutting" 1999 Birthed Timberly-sober for 10 months during pregnancy 2001 Easy access and availability of alcohol...started drinking everyday because I was "free".
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Interests
Well I wopuld have to say Texas HOld'em, SPades, playstation2, internet, my children and fiance like cleaning and cooking and doing laundry for them, playing cards at an alcohol free house, waching ROb & BIg on MTV2, watching Wife Swap for two hours everynight Monday-Thurday and 3 hours on FRiday on Lifetime, listening to music especially Mason Jennings.....he rocks but not hard., readin recovery recommandations, searching for thye truth, not living in decpetion/denial and anything to keep my mind off drinking and harmful, impulsive behaviors.
Well I wopuld have to say Texas HOld'em, SPades, playstation2, internet, my children and fiance like
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The Scale at the County Courthouse
July 28, 2009 6:23am
Two Fri. ago, I went to the Courthouse to find out who owns a property. The office was closed due to funding cuts. I was getting ready to leave and …
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Independence day 4 me too...
July 4, 2009 12:08pm
Free f/ resentments, "killing 'em with kindness is what my case manager, Cathy said. She is so helpful. She hooked me up with transportation to a …
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"We take child abuse and domestic violence very serious."
June 25, 2009 1:16pm
These were the words of the woman I spoke with from Legal Aid today. An Attorney is calling me tomorrow morning so we can discuss specifics. This is …
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Hugbook
Hug
Thanks Lori! I needed that this morning. Off to medicaid - fun, fun! Why else would I be up at this time of the morning - too bad it's not for a job!
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Gold Star
Hey, forgot to mention BIG KUDOS on the weight loss, too!
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High Five
Wow! Your post brought big smiles, girl, HUGE smiles to my face! So very happy for you. You deserve all the good things that are coming your way! Keep up the awesome work and take it easy in that new truck -- like I said -- you're carrying precious cargo -- and I don't just mean your daughter either! Love ya, girlie!
Flower
How you doing ? I'm much better & hope to keep on this path. No pain pills in 10 days guess the acupuncture is working!! take care enjoy life Shannon
Hug
I hope thing are still going your way!! Have a great weekend!!!
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI was diagnosed only with clinical depression at the age of 16 after my first of many suicidal attempts, but this one I wanted to really die. Then I was 24 when I was diagnosed with bipolar.....I have been stable for 29 months.
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
- Cymbalta Working / Worked
- 60 mg at bedtime
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- Writing Working / Worked
Close Bipolar Disorder
II or Nos can't remember
Treatments
- Celexa Working / Worked
- tried, but didn't like
- Geodon Working / Worked
- 160 mg at bedtime...can't live without it
- Group Therapy Working / Worked
- Lamictal Working / Worked
Open Alcoholism
I have drank since I was 13 years old. It was just for fun at first. One beer or one glass of wine and I had a buzz enough I could still face my tyrannt mother. SO then I got my own place and have drank haevily since I was 18. FOr ten years I have been trying to quit. One rehab, 2 times in outpatient therapy, 2 hospital stays, AA meetings and pushing my loved ones further away from me. The only one I really don't care about is my mother. SO As ofFeb. 1, 2009 I am sober.
Treatments
- 12 Step Program Working / Worked
- didn't work tried many times
- AA Meetings Working / Worked
- didn';t work tried many times
- Campral Working / Worked
- have used in the past
- Cold Turkey Working / Worked
- prayed
- Detox Working / Worked
- on my own
- Folic Acid Working / Worked
- Outpatient Treatment Program Working / Worked
- start 3/30/09
- Residential Treatment Center Working / Worked
- did not work in the past for long sobriety
- Trazodone Working / Worked
- helped for sleep in the past don't need them now
- Willpower Working / Worked
- if that's what you want to call it
Open Pre-menstrual Syndrome (PMS)
LorrenaB hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Personality Disorders
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