Loui's Journal

Which means I'm in need of some help.

I'm really struggling again, I had been doing really well, but I cut for the first time in over a month last night. I'm finding it really hard right now not to succumb to the urges again. I really hoped I wouldn't find myself back in this awful, dark, hopeless place, but here I am.

I can't cope with any of the simple day-to-day stuff at the moment, going to school once again has become a massive hurdle. I'm barely eating anymore, one small meal every evening at the moment, and thats really hard as it is. I can't manage my schoolwork, and missing time at college is only making it harder.

I just feel so incredibly low right now, and I don't know how to cope with it all. I haven't seen a pdoc for nearly 2 months, and its going to be at least 2 weeks until I can see someone. So I feel pretty darn stuck.