Journal Entry for November 19, 2009
November 19, 2009 6:52pm
eurgh i feel so fat! i hate this im done i cant feel like this anymore.
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Loui
4:20pm, November 16, 2009
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About Me
Loui
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About Me
Im in a pretty dark place trying to find a way out.
Im in a pretty dark place trying to find a way out.
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Interests
Escapism
Escapism
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Recent Activity
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4 hugs given, 4 hugs received, 1 journal post, 1 journal comment
Thursday
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Loui wrote a journal entry: Journal Entry for November 19, 2009 6:52pm
eurgh i feel so fat! i hate this im done i cant feel like this anymore.…
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Loui commented on Sedonabell’s journal entry UGH 5:54pm
Im in a pretty simliar stiuation, and when i have given in and cut, i havent felt any better. maybe its…
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Loui and insecurelittlegirl are now friends 5:38pm
Wednesday
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Loui joined the Dyspraxia & Apraxia support group 6:11pm
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Loui gave insecurelittlegirl a hug 5:53pm
again thats a feeling i know all too well. you should really try to find someone you can talk to, it…
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Journal Entry for November 15, 2009
November 15, 2009 6:45pm
invisible. insignificant. disgusting. hopeless. worthless. sickening. hideous. useless. fat. stupid. …
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Journal Entry for November 15, 2009
November 15, 2009 6:02pm
i need to escape. get away. whether i physically leave or otherwise. i just cant do this. im stuck going over the same thoughts. the same memories. …
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Journal Entry for November 11, 2009
November 11, 2009 6:03pm
I cut again last night. Knew I would. Think I probably will again tonight. I dont want to live any more.
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Im Back...
November 9, 2009 6:01pm
Which means I'm in need of some help. I'm really struggling again, I had been doing really well, but I cut for the first time in over a month …
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i know i should but its all too much to let go...
i really just dont trust people and how they will react because i dont want to lose friends over not being able to control myself. i would rather just live with it or kill myself im just scared ): -
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not really and i really dont want to bother people with my problems.. you know? it just makes me mad that i cant deal with it
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i have tried that before though my parents found out four times and each time they were from different people one time it was the school another my friends mom then my friends and then they were like you are going to see a therapist but the thing was i hated it so i lied my way out of it... i just really didnt like talking about my feelings it made me feel vulnerable which i hate......
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they used to... but then i acted like i stopped and they believed me so now they dont know. they dont need to know either cause it would just ruin their lives and everything would be really messy
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well my parents are sort of freaking out and telling me my grades need to improve when i have like 2 A's 2 A-'s and 1 B+, i get yelled at for all these things, people are starting to ignore me and act like i dont exist but i dont blame them and my cutting has just like started to take off but i didnt even realize it...
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Support Groups
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI was bullied at school for a long time, and then family issues started to come up, I lost two very close family members and my best friend in less than a year. I've self harmed for over 4 years, have attempted suicide, and been hospitalised. I don't know what to do any more.
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Considering
- my therapist wants to try this out
- Effexor Too Soon to Tell
- Just started it, I'm intersested to see if this actually helps!
- Prozac Not Working
- Isnt helping all that much, Worse than Ive been for a while on it :/
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- I just found I felt worse, it works for a lot of people but not me.
Close Bereavement - Teens
I lost my grandad, my uncle, and my best friend in the same year.
Treatments
- Music Working / Worked
Open Self-Injury
I've self harmed for nearly four years. When my parents found out my dad refused to speak to me for a fortnight. And they still refuse to accept it.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- I stopped going. It just didn't help.
- Rubber Bands Somewhat Helpful
- sometimes it helps, sometimes it doesn't.
Open Depression - Teen
Loui hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Stroke
Loui hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Brain Injury
my dad had a serious intercrainial bleed last year.
Open Eating Disorders
Type: AnorexiaI was bulimic and now have developed anorexia.
Open Healthy Sex
Loui hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Sports Injuries
I wrecked the ligaments in my left ankle in January, I'm still having problems with the pain and swelling, but I have just started to get back into traing again. I've now got to get an MRI done, still don't know whats going on with it!
Treatments
Open Pre-menstrual Syndrome (PMS)
I get really depressed.
Treatments
- Evening Primrose Oil Not Working
- Oral Contraceptives Too Soon to Tell
- just starting so we'll see :)
Open Food Allergies
I'm allergic to caffine, but prawns and cheese make me ill as well. oddly. and pizotifen, a migrane tablet!
Treatments
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Somewhat Helpful
- works as long as i don't develop a new allergy!
- EpiPen Too Soon to Tell
- It's handy! haven't had to use it yet though so fingers crossed I won't!
Open Family & Friends of Cancer Patients
my Nan died from breast cancer, and my uncle is dying from bowel cancer.
Open Teen Anxiety
I suffer from anxiety as well as depression and an eating disorder.
Open Vegetarians & Vegans
have been veggie for about 6 months
Open Bullying
have been bullied by various people in various way throughout my entire school life (13 years to date)
Open Agoraphobia & Social Anxiety
Loui hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open DailyStrength Members Community
Loui hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Dizziness & Vertigo
Loui hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Female Sexual Issues
Loui hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Personality Disorders
I've been told I've probably got BPD
Open Dyspraxia & Apraxia
Loui hasn’t entered any details for this support group.
