stillyoung

Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) Depression

I have Crohns Disease, RH and Osto arthitis, lost five family members in less than a year, a bit of a problem with coke...I guess that is good enough to be depressed.

Treatments

Prozac Not Working

There was no effect or help from it.

Luvox Too Soon to Tell

Just started using it a few weeks ago.

Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked

My meds aren't working, but I have made myself find at least one good thing that happened that day. I am helping myself.

Cymbalta Working / Worked

so far I think it is helping, but I think I need a stronger dose.

Open Bereavement
Type: Loss of a Partner/Spouse

July 5th,2004 my 21 yr. old nephew took his life. No note and I am not sure why. Two weeks later my mother was told she had lung cancer and treatment was started. The end of Aug. my father was told he had stage 4 lung cancer. I moved in and cared for them till they passed. Dad passed December 16,2004. Mom passed Jan. 26,2005. My Aunt passed in Feb. of 2005 from a burst ear drum on the flight to my mother's funeral. My Uncle passed in April of 2005 from lung cancer.

Treatments

Crying Not Working

I can't let myself cry yet. I still can't griev. I don't know how and can't let go.

Psychotherapy Not Working

My parents were my best friends. I did everything with them. I can't let go. I still need them.

Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Not Working

I don't know how to grieve and just can't right now.

Open Chronic Fatigue Syndrome

Due to Crohns Disease, RA and Osteo arthitis, depression and grief it has taken a bit of a toll. I do look a bit older...lol.

Treatments

Paxil Not Working

It never worked.

Open Marijuana Addiction & Recovery

I know smoking pot is concidered a drug addiction, but without the use of marijuana for health reasons I don't know what I would do. I do believe that marijuana is safer than alcohol.

Treatments

Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked

I will never stop smoking. It is the best medicine I have used yet.

Open Chronic Pain

Between the pain from Crohns Disease, RA and ostio arthritis I have chronic pain all the time. Right now my neck is fusing together from RA and my pelvic has advanced RA. They now feel I have fibro also....but not sure yet.

Treatments

Hydrocodone Not Working

It made me so ill that I would have prefered the pain.

Oxycodone Not Working

It also made me so ill I would have prefered the pain to the nausea.

Marijuana Working / Worked

I take nausea pills all the time and so far they haven't worked. Pot does work and it relaxes my body so it helps the pain from the arthritis.

Open Parenting Newborns & Infants (0-1)

My daughter and grandchildren live with me and I am their main support. Jennette is two months old and beautiful.

Treatments

Positive Thinking Working / Worked

I sing to her all the time. They love to hear me sing until they get old enough to realize grandma has a lousy voice.....lol.

Open Parenting Preschoolers (3-5)

I am a grandmother of three beautiful girls. Four counting my daughter. Aaliyah is 4, Elizabeth is 3 and Jennette is 2 months. My daughter and I do not see eye to eye on most things that involve the girls. I use the 1-2-3 method. I refuse to give the 4and 3 year olds bottles. I would prefer the screaming. It dosen't last long. The three year old just got out of pull-ups and feel free to stand there and piss on my original hardword floors. The girls run all over my daughter.

Treatments

Patience Working / Worked

The 1-2-3 method works well. Crying doesn't bother me. I lost my patience when my daughter is around.

Open Military Families

I entered the US Army at the age of 27 which is concidered old. I went through basic training twice because I couldn't qualify with the M16 the first time around. I also was sexually harrassed by one of the drill sergents. When I reported it to my drill he was behind me all the way and had me report it to the captain, who was a woman. Her words were....99.9 percent of my drills wouldn't do that. After weeks of hell I finally requested a lie detector test. There was no punishment given.

Treatments

Positive Thinking Working / Worked

My drill, a man, wouldn't let me give up until the truth came out. The drill that sexually harrassed me wasn't even punished when he finally confessed.

Open Shopping Addiction

I am a compulsive shopper when I am down. Even if I don't have the money. Then, after I buy something I feel even worse. I have to hide things so no one knows. I have had yard sales where half the items still had the price tag on. Then, I would take the money from the yardsale and go shopping. It is a lose, lose situation.

Treatments

Luvox Working / Worked

I was in a medical study for compulsive behavior. It was a blind study. You either got the real drug or a placebo. Within a week I knew I had the real thing.

Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked

Using Luvox helps and so does working on the problem.

Open Menopause

At the age of twenty I had a partial hysterectomy. Then at thirty eight I had a complete one. My mind has been in a fog ever since.

Treatments

Estroven Somewhat Helpful

Open Abstinence & Celibacy

I have been married three times and all three were terrible. I left my last one January 2000. I have not had a date or sex since that time. I can't just sleep with anyone. I have to know them. Most men don't understand what being brought up old book and I am Catholic. I want to know the man I sleep with.

Open Female Sexual Issues

I have no labido, but I do believe in knowing someone first.

Open Bipolar Disorder

I am not sure if I am bipolar. I have been diagnosed with depression since 1986 and have been on every antidepressant with no help. A couple of them made it worse for me. If you read my page you will see what I have been through. To much to put here. I want to know if I am bipolar.

Open Family Issues

I am the middle child of seven children. We were a very poor and simple family. My father was an alcoholic and also three sisters.....one is still practicing. I lived and cared for my parents until they passed from cancer. Only one sibling helped me out when she could. We are all messed up in the head. My mother had family lunch every Sunday....and I still don't know them...or like them.

Open Breakups & Divorce

I have been married three times and divorced three times. All three ex's either just used me or needed me....not one loved me. I never took a thing in any of the divorces except my daughter...I regret that now. Haven't dated in 7 years now.

Treatments

Psychotherapy Working / Worked

It helped just to talk about it.

Open Personality Disorders
Type: Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)

I was told by my doctor today taht I had bpd and deep depression today. I am not sure if I agree with her. I know I am deeply depressed, but I felt it was more bipolar disoder and ptsd from the loss of so many family memebers. I just lost another one last week. I am just scared and no one around me understands why I can't get out of bed, eat or even function. So lost and alone.....that is how I feel when I feel.

Treatments

Cymbalta Too Soon to Tell

I am just going to start trying it and it is my last hope for the depression. I have been through every other medication and nothing works. Will let you know.

Open Financial Challenges

I have a very bad spending problem. It goes along with bpd. I am so far into debt that I will not be able to see any of my dreams come true until I am free....which will be a long time.

Treatments

Luvox Working / Worked

I am no longer on this medication because I couldn't use it with some of the others I have to take. But when I was using it the spending went way down.

Open Families & Friends Affected By Suicide

My 21 year old nephew shot himself 2 hours after he came to see me. I practally raised him since both my sister and his father were bad alcoholics and didn't want him around. He graduated college with a 4.0 and had just got a high paying wonderful job. The morning he shot himself he was so happy. He sais all was going well at work and he liked the people he worked with. He never left a note and I can't understand why he did it and why he came to see me just before he did it.

Treatments

Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell

She is to happy for me as of right now. I don't think she is helping me.

Writing Working / Worked

helps me to vent and yell and cry at him and for him. Keeps me from forgetting that anyone could do it.