Instead of the wear & tear of life, I wish I could be happier. Despite the bad home life, I remember some happier times and episodes of my youth and young adulthood. Decades ago my husband (now ex) & I were once wealthy, were rearing our young children and we were happy. It is all gone. Divorce & losses. I am still adjusting to the changes in my life.

Somehow I need to receive the beauty & peace which the Lord has for me now in my autumn season of life. I am so glad & thankful for my art, memoirs & poems, grown up successful kids & friends. I pour my heart out to God. Through out my life I have learned a great deal of patience in suffering. I see a great deal of quiet maturity in myself for I have spiritually grown a lot. I don't know what else to pray but Abba Father. All I know is I need to take care of my soul. That is between God & me. Like the sea life ebbs & flows; so is the poetry of my soul, which I have been sharing with my friends on DS.

Is not life so poignant? Look at life's personal bittersweet situations, of joy & pathos. That poignancy is expressed in my poems & memoirs & art. I feel like Sylvia Plaithe. Wish I could publish like her. Thank God that poignancy can be expressed between good friends and us writers of stories of Gods Grace. I appreciate you all. May each one of you be blessed.