I KNOW THAT I HAVEN'T BEEN ONLINE HERE IN QUITE A WHILE! MY WEIGHT LOSS CHALLENGE CAME AND WENT AND I DIDN'T FOLLOW THROUGH WITH IT! FOR THIS...I AM SO SORRY! IT IS MY GREATEST HOPE, THAT YOU CAN FORGIVE ME FOR THAT!
MY HEALTH HASN'T BEEN GOOD AT ALL LATELY!
I AM ON OXYGEN AT NIGHT NOW!
I HAD A STROKE TWO WEEKS AGO! AND....WHEN THE DOCTOR HAD A C-T SCAN DONE OF MY BRAIN...THEY FOUND A WHITE MASS ON MY BRAIN!
SO....MY DOCTOR ALSO HAD AN MRI(WITH AND WITHOUT CONTRAST)DONE AND THAT TOO, CAME BACK WITH THE SAME RESULTS!!
I HAVE TO GO FOR A SONAGRAM OF MY VEINS TO SEE IF I HAVE ANY BLOCKAGE (BECAUSE OF MY FINGER'S AND LEGS GOING NUMB)!
AND FURTHER TESTING TO SEE WHAT THIS MASS IS ON MY BRAIN!
MOST DAYS....I AM TIRED ALL THE TIME AND SLEEP MOST OF THE TIME AWAY! I HAVE DIZZY SPELLS AND HEADACHES AS WELL AND...... VISION PROBLEMS ALSO!! WHAT I JUST FOUND OUT WAS THAT....... THIS WHITE MASS WAS FOUND FIVE MONTHS...... AFTER MY CAR/SEMI ACCIDENT IN 2003 BUT WAS NEVER CHECKED ON!!!
(TRUST ME...WHEN I SAY...."THAT PISSES ME OFF'!!! THIS ALL POSSIBLY COULD HAVE BEEN AVOIDED IF ONLY SOMEONE..... HADN'T 'PASSED THE BUCK' AND HAD TAKEN THE TIME TO ACTUALLY CARE ABOUT ME!!)
NOW...THE MASS COVERS MY ENTIRE BRAIN!
I KNOW THAT I MAY BE FACING MY DEATH BECAUSE OF THIS PROBLEM!
I AM THANKFUL THOUGH THAT I HAVE RECENTLY COME TO KNOW GOD AND JESUS AND I KNOW THAT.... IF IT IS MT TIME...AT LEAST I HAVE BEEN DOING WORK FOR GOD AND THAT I AM SAVED! I KEEP MY FAITH AND TRUST IN GOD THAT IF IT BE HIS WILL .......THAT I PART FROM THIS EARTH.....THAT HE WILL KEEP ME STRONG AND LIFT ME UP TO FACE WHATEVER MAY COME !
FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO ARE BELIEVER'S..... PLEASE KEEP ME IN YOUR PRAYER'S!!!
AND ALSO PLEASE KNOW THAT I ALSO PRAY FOR ALL OF YOU (MY FRIENDS )AROUND THE WORLD (AND HERE AT HOME )AS WELL AS MY FAMILY TOO! I HAVE MY DAYS WHEN I SOMETIMES JUST WANT TO LAY DOWN AND GIVE UP AND CRY!! BUT.... FAITH...ALWAYS....LIFTS ME UP AGAIN!
I HAVE TO ADMIT THAT IT'S NOT DEATH I FEAR!! BUT....DYING A PAINFUL DEATH..... THAT SCARES ME!
I GO BACK TO MY DOCTOR FIRST THING MONDAY MORNING!! SO...IF I AM ABLE...I WILL KEEP YOU POSTED!!
I AM SO GLAD NOW .....THAT I KEPT RECORDS AND ALL XRAYS, MRI'S, AND C-T SCANS FROM MY ACCIDENT! I WENT THROUGH THEM AND FOUND THE SCANS AND WRITTEN RESULTS OF THOSE SCANS AND I PLAN ON TAKING THEM WITH ME SO THAT MY DOCTOR WILL HAVE SOMETHING TO COMPARE THE NEWEST SCANS WITH! WELL MY FRIENDS, IT IS TIME FOR ME TO CLOSE FOR NOW! I AM TIRED ONCE AGAIN! TAKE CARE OF YOURSELVES AND GOD BLESS!! BOOMERTOO
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AS AN ADDED MESSAGE TO ALL THE MEMBER'S OF MY WEIGHT LOSS GROUP......STAY STRONG GUYS AND GALS! I HOPE TO BE ABLE TO SEE PICS OF YOU ALL.... 'AFTER' YOU LOSE..... ALL THE WEIGHT YOU WANT TO LOSE! I AM RIGHT HERE ROOTING FOR EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU! TTYL! BOOMERTOO