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Posted on 09/15/09, 07:52 pm
I wished someone could do a study on me. Dealing with Depression all my life practically!!! Been Institutionalized 5 times for suicidal Ideations, and have tried so many different Anitdepression meds.
My conclusion is that " there is no hope for me" I am who I am!!!
Someone that is no one, someone who has not a friend in the world to talk to, someone who is lost in her own little world, someone who doesn't like to be around people (especially a crowd), someone who doesn't know what happiness means anymore, someone who has no joy in her life, someone who is Disabled, someone who is very alone, someone who continues to be sad and hopeless, someone who is just waiting for this world to just blow up. Just sitting around waiting for the END to come!!!
WHY am I even here????? I am just STUPID !!! I am a very WIERD one!!!!!
My conclusion is that " there is no hope for me" I am who I am!!!
Someone that is no one, someone who has not a friend in the world to talk to, someone who is lost in her own little world, someone who doesn't like to be around people (especially a crowd), someone who doesn't know what happiness means anymore, someone who has no joy in her life, someone who is Disabled, someone who is very alone, someone who continues to be sad and hopeless, someone who is just waiting for this world to just blow up. Just sitting around waiting for the END to come!!!
WHY am I even here????? I am just STUPID !!! I am a very WIERD one!!!!!
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Reply #1 09/16/09 5:12pm
well I can tell just by the way you write that you are NoT stupid :) also I don't think being weird is necessarily a bad thing and if anyone tells you they know why any of us are here they're trying to fool someone! i am with you on the " don't wanna be around people" thing but I've found that connecting with people like me on this site brings me alot of comfort, I was hopeless for a very long time, so please don't think it can never change, we have to believe it can, that is the only way it will. try visualizing your depression as a living breathing thing and then don't feed it for a day and see what happens, maybe it will go look for food somewhere else, haha anyway, you are NOT alone, there are lots and lots of people like us, the important thing is to keep trying, the fact that you came to this site shows you want to figure it out so don't give up!
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