LAZY14

i cant go on like this anymore i lost the will to live

Posted on 09/13/09, 02:22 pm

hi everyone,i am new,i have been battling depression,fibromyalgia,social anty for years.i am allergic to antidepresnts,i have no one to talk to who even cares.i feel like i let my family down,my kids are now depressed,its all my fault,i am ruinig there lives,and i dont know what to do anymore.i feel all alone,and scared.i feel like i am losing my mind.i think my current meds i am on are contrubting to my illness.i cant even function at work anymore. lazy

• Reply #1 09/13/09  7:16pm
  
  mlb
  Hi...you are not lazy....and there are sooooo many here who have walked in your shoes. Very often I feel the same...and today I am 76...I feel sad and wish you hugs wrapped with love. Every day can be a new day...a new beginning...and maybe I too can rememeber that. Namaste...mlb
  
• Reply #2 09/14/09  9:04pm
  
  1sickofit
  you are not alone! many of us feel the way you do, you have to change it up, find the right combination of listeners/meds/time that works for you, you deserve to feel good and you will, keep trying and soon the good days will outnumber the bad ones, you are not ruining your kids lives, they need you and the fact that your worried about it shows you care, i use my love for my children as a great motivator, sometimes that is the only thing that keeps me going, we cant change what we did or how we acted around them yesterday but we can sure as hell change the way we act around them now and tomorrow, its never to late to do right by your kids, they will always need you, show them depression is not something to be ashamed of, show them it can be overcome, you can do it! don't give up!
• Reply #3 09/15/09  10:14am
  
  LAZY14
  thankyou so much for your replys,it means alot to me.as i sit here all alone crying,not knowing what to do next.i hate this feelng and it wont go away.i love my kids so much,i brought them in this world,and they do need me,i just feel bad on the days that i cant give them what they need and deserve from me as their mom.how do you handle bad days?i am gonna call my doctor today,i need to get off my pain meds,they dont help much with my fibromyalgia anymore,i have been on them for years,now i am finding that i am taking more to help ease my deprssion,i am allergic to antidepresants,and dont now what my options are.thankyou for your replys,and thanks for listning.lazy
• Reply #4 09/15/09  8:38pm
  
  1sickofit
  we all have the bad days for sure, sometimes i don't handle them very well at all, i wish i had a "do this when this happens" for you but i don't, for me, recently, this site has been very helpful, I am not a people person by any means, but connecting with other people like me in this forum has got me over the hump a few times in the last couple weeks so I am going to run with it, so Thank You for helping me by sharing! find some tools and use them if they break find some more!

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