I am a 26 yr old, unemployed, female. Life has been a struggle. Not only have I been unable to let go of the past, I also have a bad habit of holding grudges. When people hurt me I push them away. Sometimes those in my life aren't hurting but they are trying to help and I still see that as a threat. I feel completely alone all the time. It's kind of like I am facing everything on my own and I have no outlets so in it goes. I implode most of the time, but I also explode and it it usually at the ones I care about the most. Am I ever going to be able to let past issues go so i can face my life for what it will one day become? Honestly I don't think so. I become so depressed oftentimes that all i want to do is stay in bed or ignore everyone. That is not even including the physical pain that i feel. Is there hope of a better me. Will i ever find myself again under all of this pain, anger, and inner suffering?