Everything is complicated. To be truthful money does make you happy because without it you cant even live. The world revolves around MONEY. One of the motto's I commonly use is "Life sucks and then you die" but I don't want to live my life in agony.

I know I'm underage and all but I smoke, drink, and do drugs. I do what makes me happy whether its right or wrong. My parents try to make me be an example for people; to show everyone what the right thing to do is, but there is so much flaw with this world, whats the point? It's like fighting a brick wall.

I want to kill myself...I have to take medication every day just so I don't suffer from my own mental issues. I have to take 7 pills a day and continue this for the rest of my life. I just don't want to. I'm happy when I make selfish decisions...at this point I dont care if it disappoints my family.

I've been off meds for almost a month and I've been happier than ever, but now that my parents took that freedom away. I want to kill myself or run away.