Just want to introduce myself. I'm Karen, age 30, single forever. I don't think I'm attractive, but I don't think I'm hideous, either. I had 2 month-long boyfriends (one in high school and one in college) and I haven't dated or anything since. I've tried online dating and didn't like it. And I've met guys, too, but I can always find something I don't like, like they smoke pot and/or they're unemployed and trying to "writers." Or I say or do something to reveal my awkwardness (from inexperience, i guess) and that becomes the deal killer.
After the last boyfriend in 2001, I decided I needed to just be by myself and not try to date, because I knew I had very little self-esteem to start and had to work on me. Well, now that I'm ready to date, I've built up so many ideals that no one will live up to them. Plus, I think men can sense that I haven't been "around the block" so I naturally turn them off. And I'm dealing with depression relapses, so that also brings down my self-esteem and confidence.
I'm just tired of being alone, and I'm a tad disturbed that I haven't found anyone in 8 years. That, to me, seems a bit sick, but *shrugs*... I don't know. Just need some emotional support in dealing with being a confirmed bachelorette...