billwfriend

lets mingle a bit....

Posted on 11/15/10, 07:09 pm

I am bill F....not friend but I am bill W's friend...I am 53yr old sober dude...no smoking of anything since 1987 when I quit the fatal ciggiebutts...pot in 82 and drinking was stopped in 95...so maybe I did it backwards but it worked and I am happy to be alive...I thought I was going to die on my 21st birthday due to my sickened condition of schizophrenia that was brought on by my drug use....I suppose some of my hallucinations might have been DT's from stopping drinking but I attributed them as Flashbacks from LSD....which brought down the house of cards my life was before I turned 21.....I married late in life just because I was sleeping with someone who I thought would make me a man more if I had a wedding behind me....I was alone because of my disease much of the years before that...I did have several short term girlfriends but nothing substantial.....and I have bi-sexual tendencies but never act out in that manner...anymore...way before I discovered women I was in deep friendship with male who I had some stuff with one time.....we never did it again...and now are estranged friends...he came to my dad's viewing after dad died in Oct.; 09.....well who are you what are you all about?

• Reply #1 11/15/10  7:09pm
  
  billwfriend
  oh I divorced after she walked out in maybe third or second year of married life....
• Reply #2 11/15/10  9:03pm
  
  heretic
  Mingling, that is what this board is all about. Yet I do it so poorly. I'm 49, never married, no kids. I have bipolar, dx 4 months ago but been this way all my life. Trying to find meds that work but I'm going to a community clinic so forward progress is slow. Dealing with loneliness and depression pretty much consume my life right now. Glad I found DS, kinda dot addicted to it, gives me something to do when I am home alone. A way to reach out to others like I can't do in real life.
• Reply #3 11/15/10  11:03pm
  
  billwfriend
  heretic do you work or not? I am self employed and looking for full time substantial income work or just health insurance benefits....I was once on SSD and SSI but when I got my degree I went back to working as a teacher...now I no longer wish to be chained into a classroom ever again....I do teach in my car driving students of all ages from 15 1/2 to my older one I had who was in 80's right now I have a muslim lady who is in her 70's I would think....and her son's wife who is preggers....this lady used to have license but gave it up from fear of driving....so she is re-establishing herself as a driver now...
• Reply #4 11/17/10  10:10pm
  
  jdwacki33
  Hi everyone. I keep checking into this group, and try to think of something to write. So what better than an introduction. My name is Jon, 30 years old, from North Dakota. I'm a year 10 months sober after battling alcohol abuse for over 8 years. While I have enjoyed living life sober, it is the anxiety, depression, and loneliness that I struggle with. I found Daily Strength while doing research on anxiety forums. I'm glad that I found this website, eventhough I am not on it every day.
  
  Anyways, that is enough about myself. I hope this post finds everyone doing well. Have a great day.
• Reply #5 11/17/10  11:34pm
  
  billwfriend
  I bet you are cold right now Jon...my friend on telephone contact lives in S. Dakota and she said they had inch of snow yesterday...so it must be colder where you are.....are you a bird hunter by any chance? I used to hunt with my two dogs but one got lymphoma and the other is too old now I feel to spend several hours running to chase birds...he is 11 almost 12 now...april 30th he is 12....if you hunt birds that is ideal place to live is what the thought was...bird heaven for pheasant....they love the long grass....of the prairie....
  
  hugs bill
• Reply #6 11/18/10  12:11am
  
  jdwacki33
  Bill,
  
  It's not cold yet (well by the standards up here). Where I am at, there is no snow yet, but that sounds like it may change this weekend. The National Weather Service is talking some snow up here, but haven't said yet on any numbers as far as amounts go.
  
  I am not a bird hunter. I am more of a deer hunter. For 16 years now (can't believe it's been that long) I've been going with my dad. I got a deer this past weekend so my season is now over. It's always nice spending time in the outdoors (as long as it's not too cold out). It gives the mind a chance to really relax.
  
  Just out of curiousity, what kind of dogs do you have? Our last family dog was an English Springer that lived to be 16 years old, practically had that dog my entire life (grade school, high school, college). It was a very difficult time when we had to say goodbye to her. It's always tough to say goodby to a pet.
  
  Hope all is well.
  
  Jon
• Reply #7 11/18/10  5:31pm
  
  billwfriend
  I had a V she got lymphoma she was a rescued V... Vizsla..hungarian pointing dog....now she is under the bush at mom's house as sadly I had to have her put down....her ashes are there of course....
  
  I currently have Doc...he is English Setter....almost 12 in April 30th he will be that old...he went to doggie college...hunting school but he has never ever been a fetching dog...so I have shot them then I gotta find em because he is off trying to point out another bird....
  
  I used to deer hunt myself in high school early college....but gave it up....we have no land really to hunt but the guy who bought a part of my grandfathers farm lets me hunt there...I deer hunted down there a few years ago and got soaked wet...it poured....I quit by 9am and what would cause me to do that again? hehehe
  
  hugs bill

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