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Why do i care?

Posted on 01/24/09, 07:14 pm
My husband has been living with his whore for just over two week,s now i thought i was doing ok,i guess i was wrong,i sent him a message to ask if he had sorted some paper work that had been meant for him which was sent to me,he hasent bothered replying,so i left it and he still hasen,t messaged me back,he know,s i have been to a solicitor to start the ball rolling for a divorce cuz there ain,t no way in gods earth that we could ever be together cuz he,s been to bed with his whore and i could never have him back because i know i would never trust him again which is sad we,ve been together for 25+yrs it was his decision to move out because i couldn,t give him sex 24/7 i live with acute chronic pain as well as other health issues he thought i used my health problems as an excuse not to have sex,i feel so very sad that that the man i thought i knew has turned into someone i don,t know anymore,our son is very disappointed in his dad,today our son was voted "man of the match" in his football team so he rang his father to tell him, yet all his dad could do was say good? our son hasen,t seen his dad for almost four week,s yet everytime he rings his dad, his dad always seems to find an excuse not to meet or he,ll say i won,t be staying late,how nasty is that? this man i thought i knew has torn my heart to shreds and hurt me more than he,ll ever know it,s almost like he seem,s to enjoy hurting me and our son, i,m not the one who walked out! he was the one who couldn,t give a damm he,s the one who walked out then sent me messsages asking if i was alright?? what the hell is he doing? i keep saying to myself why do i care? or should i care? well because i can,t just switch off my feelings like a bloody light,i just don,t know what the heck i,ve done so wrong? i would be a liar if i said i wasen,t worried because i am worried about him and yes i do still care i,m just all over the place emotionally,i also know his whore is very firery but what if he,s ill? would she tell me? i just don,t know where i stand or if i should just let go,he never knew when i was abducted just how bad it affected me,i could never tell him because i,m still having problems dealing with the aftermath of what happened to me,and he was told by the councellor that it would take years if not a lifetime for me to get over it,we both went to a rape councillor but it obviously meant nothing to him,why is he hurting me like this? he send,s me a message asking how i am, yet he won,t answer one message i sent to him,i,d welcome any advice right now cuz i,m all over the place emotionally
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  • Reply #1 01/25/09  5:38am
    awe hun, im sorry., u care cos you love/loved him. sorry im running round today, ill reply better later. thinking of u.

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