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suicidal?

Posted on 05/07/09, 10:05 am
hi .. im new here.. this is my first post. i am a doctor from india.

the problem is my family. they just dont understand me. all i ask for is a little love. but they dont want to give it to me. my mom, my dad and my sister. i am so fed up that i feel i cant stay at home anymore. but i have nowhere to go. eventhough i am a doctor, i dont hav a license yet. i just finished my course and have a long way to go into residency n all. the only person who understands me is my boyfrnd and he is in another country.

i dont know how anyone can NOT appreciate me. i have been the topper everytym and have done so much to shine my parents name up. do i get any appreciation for that? no. my sister does half of wht i do and they treat her like a princess.

i am overweight. and not so good lookin as my sister (though my bf sez i look prettier than her) .. ok... so?? love was unconditional i thought. (oh, but believe me, God compensated it all and gave me double brains so i can really kick ass at tht..) so my mom leaves no stone unturned to make sure i dont sit on the couch even for a minute or sleep later than 5 am. why? i dont know. she doesnt do this to my sister. huh

i want to run away from home. but where do i go? i want to die. but i cannot leave my bf. he has been there for me always. and i know he will die for me if he has to. thats how much he loves me. i know god compensated for all this emotional abuse with the most amazing person i have in my life but its goin to be another 2-3 yrs b4 we get married and i get out of here. not a day passes by when i dont get yelled and screamed at by my parents. im so fed up of having swollen eyes everyday after all that crying i do. i want this to end.
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  • Reply #1 05/08/09  11:48pm
    I know you are hurting just by reading . I do not know enough to make much of a comment. I do not know your culture or religion.I I do not know your past. All I can do is give you a hug and tell you to keep trying your best in everything you do. Many times there are no easy answers in lifes problems we all face one kind or another. I since the stress you are feeling. I wish I could be of some help in comforting you. There are many stroms in life that we must indure.
    Perhaps your parent see your great potintual and feel they do not want you to fail and so they are hard on you. It is what we call tough love in away.
    They are hard on you because they want you to prosper and do well in life. They know life is not easy and the profession you have chosen is not easy.
    Many times our children think we parents are too hard on them and push too hard but some children need that extra push. Parents see our kids potintual we want a good life for you.
    Hang in there do not give up. you have alot to gain and to live for.
  • Reply #2 05/08/09  11:52pm
  • Reply #3 07/17/09  7:11pm
    I can relate. I still have issues with my own family not appreciating me, or I'm just not like anyone else in my family. I do hope you can be closer to your boyfriend, you're lucky to have him in your life. Remember to think about your acheivements, you are a very smart person, you are a doctor, a hardworker. You deserve to be treated better by your family and it's too bad they are giving your sister the princess treatment. Try talking to them about how you're feeling. Maybe move out of the house.
    I don't know what else to say, but that I can relate, and I hope things will get better! Hold your head up high and keep on working hard to your goals:) *hugs*

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