What a loving and beautiful tribute to your mother.
I am so sorry for your loss.
I know she miss's you as well. gentle hugs
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My mother's death...****Triggering***
Posted on 08/15/08, 12:06 am
My mother, was my best friend, at least on my part she was, I loved her, and even though I didnt feel loved by her, somewhere in me wants to believe that she loved me, and still does. She and I hung out, more than most mothers and daughters do.
In late october 2006, my mother informed me that her cancer was back, and that she is refussing to do treatments, because she doesnt want to go through the same hell she did shortly after I was born when she was diagnosed with it.
My heart broke that day, over the next few months, I slowly and painfully watched my mother die. It was the hardest thing for me to do. I wanted nothing more than to just bail and run away from it, I didnt want to cope with it. I didnt know how to.
The day after thanksgiving she was admitted to the hospital, she was suffering to bad, and she asked the doc if anything would work, her doc told her she could have her breast removed and it might slow the process down, she told them to go through with it. When they went in, they saw there was too much there. There was nothing they could do to save my mom. It was out of the docs hands.
On December 10th 2006, she was taken home. She didnt want to die in the hospital, she wanted to be home. At that point my schooling was put on a hold, I quit my job, lost a few friend, my boyfriend moved in with me, and helped me take care of my mother, along with her nurse.
On December 20th, at around noon, my mom told the nurse to come get me. I was in bed trying to get some sleep, i was also on my period. My mom told me something she had not said a lot in my life, she told me she loved me. I started to cry, holding her i told her I loved her too, and kissed her on her cheek.
Within minutes my mother was gone. She has been gone for almsot two years now, and I can still remember those few months as if it were yesterday. I remember getting into a fight with her about something stupid sometimes durning decemeber. I remember it all. But out of all this, the one thing I remember the most, was my mother telling me she loved me, right before she died.
I miss her so much, and feel so lost without her, my mother is gone, but my love for her, is as strong as it has ever been. xx
ElizabethAngel1989, writen on August 15th 2008, 12.05 am, with tears in my eyes and pain in my heart. xx
In late october 2006, my mother informed me that her cancer was back, and that she is refussing to do treatments, because she doesnt want to go through the same hell she did shortly after I was born when she was diagnosed with it.
My heart broke that day, over the next few months, I slowly and painfully watched my mother die. It was the hardest thing for me to do. I wanted nothing more than to just bail and run away from it, I didnt want to cope with it. I didnt know how to.
The day after thanksgiving she was admitted to the hospital, she was suffering to bad, and she asked the doc if anything would work, her doc told her she could have her breast removed and it might slow the process down, she told them to go through with it. When they went in, they saw there was too much there. There was nothing they could do to save my mom. It was out of the docs hands.
On December 10th 2006, she was taken home. She didnt want to die in the hospital, she wanted to be home. At that point my schooling was put on a hold, I quit my job, lost a few friend, my boyfriend moved in with me, and helped me take care of my mother, along with her nurse.
On December 20th, at around noon, my mom told the nurse to come get me. I was in bed trying to get some sleep, i was also on my period. My mom told me something she had not said a lot in my life, she told me she loved me. I started to cry, holding her i told her I loved her too, and kissed her on her cheek.
Within minutes my mother was gone. She has been gone for almsot two years now, and I can still remember those few months as if it were yesterday. I remember getting into a fight with her about something stupid sometimes durning decemeber. I remember it all. But out of all this, the one thing I remember the most, was my mother telling me she loved me, right before she died.
I miss her so much, and feel so lost without her, my mother is gone, but my love for her, is as strong as it has ever been. xx
ElizabethAngel1989, writen on August 15th 2008, 12.05 am, with tears in my eyes and pain in my heart. xx
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Reply #2 10/07/08 10:15am
I'm sorry to hear your loss of your mother. Me and my mother have a hard relationship sometimes, and then at other times we are getting along great! We just try our best in this life with our relationships, and that's all we can do!
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