beads15

hi

Posted on 11/04/09, 08:35 am

Hi,I am new here and so very lost,confused,alone,desperate.I am 36 yrs old.I have struggled with SI since I was 15.A lot of people think im not a self injurer because I dont cut but there are several forms of SI.since I lost my mom almost 3 years ago the stuggle seems worse and I have been not even fighting it i have just been giving in to it over and over.my boyfriend is also a SI we have helped eachother through it so many times.I just dont know what to do any more.Has anyone ever told you you can stop if you want to!God that infuriates me.

• Reply #1 11/04/09  10:07am
  
  GDJ1957
  Hi My name is Guy. Welcome to the group. I know how you feel. There are a many of us here that do. I hope you find the support and friendship you are looking for. ....good luck.....love you
• Reply #2 11/04/09  1:12pm
  
  Roseannefan
  As guy says, welcome to our group. I fully understand your struggles to overcome SI, it is a long and painstaking process, that never seems to end. I am glad your boyfriend understands fully what you are going through, it is good to have someone with you who knows exactly what you go through everyday, and I am glad the two of you help each other through your struggles.
  
  I know what you mean, how it infuriates you when people say you can stop if you want to. I've gotten that several times from my fiance. He's the only one in my life who knows what I do. He'll say, "well we can always talk about things that bother you. I won't judge you." And then when we talk, he winds up making me feel so moronic for my reasons behind my needs to cut. Granted, after a while, I too see my reasons as being stupid... but during that time of urge, that's the last thing I need, to be told I'm being foolish. Or he'll threaten to send me to one of those mental evaluation places, have me Baker-acted & all. And that scares me to death, for then something I've taken so much care to hide will come out into the open.
• Reply #3 11/04/09  2:35pm
  
  TheThingsTh...
  Hi Beads and welcome to the group.
  I hope you find the support you are looking for here.
  The people in this group are great...we are a small but supportive community.
  Again, welcome,
  Lucy

This group is for adults dealing with self injury issues beyond their teen years. I find it sometimes awkward discussing trggering details with those not of adult age. Please don't misunderstand, I think people of all ages have valuable opinions, it's just no one in my life ever showed appropriate boundaries with me and I don't want to make that mistake with others.