rochelle48

Looking for support.......

Posted on 06/21/09, 08:08 pm

I know I need to recover, but can't find a way to get on track. I know I do not look healthy, but why can't I just eat normal?

Does anyone have advise to make the eating disorder switch turn off?

Looking for support......

• Reply #1 06/21/09  9:29pm
  
  sophie09
  Are you in therapy or seeing a professional?
• Reply #2 07/03/09  9:49pm
  
  rochelle48
  I have been seeing a therapist for nearly a year and have not made any progress.
• Reply #3 07/04/09  10:43am
  
  sophie09
  I'd tell the therapist that you feel like you haven't made any progress since you started seeing them. You need to let the therapist know what you want from them and also when you feel you're not getting it.
  
  You said in your original post that you know you need to recover, which is true. But do you WANT to recover? Needing and wanting are different. Recovery probably won't happen until you WANT to recover.
  
  What are some reasons you need to recover? What are some reasons you WANT to recover?
• Reply #4 08/01/09  3:40pm
  
  rochelle48
  I know I need to because I don't look healthy. I am too thin. I can't live a normal life because I am always thinking about calories, how much I can consume, how much I have left in the day. I try to hold off as long as I can to eat something and then when the end of the day comes.....Reasons I want to recover.....so I can feel beautiful again and live a normal life. I want to spend more time with my family and husband and not think about if I go to dinner with them that I won't have anything to pick on a menu because I know how many calories are in it. I want to say I am done with this ED and that I can live a normal life with friends and family. I want to quit makeing excuses and reasons for why I can't go to events. How do you find the want inside of you to really make the change?
• Reply #5 08/01/09  6:19pm
  
  sophie09
  I don't know how to answer that one. I guess it happens when what you want outweighs what the ED is giving you. Everyone's turning point is different.
• Reply #6 08/01/09  6:30pm
  
  rochelle48
  Have you been able to do it? What was your turning point? I want children, but it that isn't even enough for me, not even wanting to be normal. I have been stuck in this "zone" for so long. Well, I think it is long, for nearly a year, year and a half.
• Reply #7 08/03/09  12:12pm
  
  sophie09
  My turning point was physical. I woke up one day and wasn't able t walk on my own due to being so weak and dizzy. I was carried from room to room or lead with a very strong grip on my arm to keep me from falling. I had chest pains all day and my heart rate was low and erratic. At one point, I got a sharp pain in my chest and everything went black fr a fraction of a second.
  
  That day scared me. I knew I couldn't continue and get through college. It took me a while before I actually did anything to change my behaviors, but that opened my eyes to what I was doing to myself. That happened in Feb and I went IP in July.
  
  It's been 4 years now and I haven't had a major slip and have never relapsed. It is possible.

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