been thinking hard about this before i wrote another entry in my journal. Now Ill write one, a with all things.. Im in physical pain.. and some days just worse than others.. however.. Ive been doing allot of praying allot of thinking and trying to get what our dear Lord has been trying to do with me.. their is a passage in the bible... about a piece of pottery that a person created.. and the Lord says bacily does the pottery say to its creator why have thou created me thus?? NO!! of course not.. so Ive been thinking.. also.. it says have joy.. thru your sufferings. I used to think.. how can anyone have Joy.. Lord when they are in so much..Pain.. or be happy?.. it says be happy.. in ones infermaties..also... to Be... more accurate.. Well after alot of soul searching.. and praying.. I think the means.. that .. that although we are in pain.. work thru it.. as the Lord can use our physical pain.. to make us a more humble and contrite spirit.. to show his love..to others.. through us.. if we can..accept his will.. and work though it.. and not question him.. It is not easy.. but I am working on this.. as our Lord.. wants us .. show his works and love for others and HIM..and spread his word through Us.. So as hard as this ..is.. I am with his help and alot of prayers trying to come to terms with my condition.. and accept that.. this is His will for me...because He cares.. and works on my ...humbling of my spirit... as is.. Trust Jesus... I believe.. no greater physical.. suffering was ever suffered greater than our Lord Jesus.. did for us... EVER...

So who am I?? to say Lord.. I can not take anymore of this physical pain?? after all Our Lords Son (jesus) did for us?? and endured??? I am working on this acceptance.. very very hard...... God bless you all.. Think OF jesus and what he went through to save us... It is SO little.. i can do.. to accept and obey without.. question our creator... SO Little... In our Lords plan for my life..... Dearest Lord in spite of my pain... May .....I remain ever humble in the sight of our lORD............ praise jesus for what HE did for us... I am and may I think of myself humbly oh Lord.. your servant.. til the end... and may I remain humble..as a tiny grain of sand.. on the beach... Ellen