I am 46yrs i have a wonderful son who is 21yrs he is my life,up until 6 week,s before christmas i was married i thought happerly until my husband dropped the bombshell that he,d been e-mailing a whore for almost a year and he felt that i was using my pain [i live in acute chronic pain]as an excuse not to have sex when he couldn,t have been futher from truth,i cannot consentrate for long period,s and i am constantly ratty through lack of sleep and pain,well he told me he wanted a bit of space he also assured me there was nothing going on between him and the whore,he then moved into his flat, within a few week,s he had moved his whore in with his [she has three kid,s 23yrs 18yrs and finally 16yrs and her old man yep she,s married! she however left her kids for my old man!] her husband is suppost to be a womaniser,i don,t know if anyone agrees with me but if your old man is a womaniser why would you go on to have three kid,s with him? or am i missing something here? in a way this has been a wake up call,i am now used to being by myself,yes i have my son who lives with me,i love having the house to myself as well as the remote!!!,i feel ok and if i,m honest i,m not too bothered about my stbx,i just feel that my life is moving on and i no longer feel that bothered about my stbx,i used to love my stbx and now i really don,t feel anything for him,he ask,s after me and personally i don,t care about what he does,but on the other hand,when i hear that my stbx has met up with mutual friends of our,s i get annoyed and i wanna have a go at him and the whore,yet i cannot work out why one minute i don,t care anymore about him yet the next i am annoyed that friends that knew us as a couple are suddenly meeting up and meeting the whore,i kinda feel let down by him,for introducing his whore to friend we both know,i just dunno why one minute i couldn,t give a flying hoot about him, yet the next i,m annoyed at our friends meeting the whore!!all the dream,s i had of growing old with him all the fears i had about being by myself has actually proven to be unfounded,yet i still get mad when i hear about him with her,is this normal? or is it just me? my life has changed so much and now i feel lost again i dont know why