BubblesDavey

I'm in a Funk! - Beware! This is a Rant.

Posted on 11/01/09, 12:08 pm

Hi all,
If you don't want to read my rant, please move on to other posts.

It started Friday when someone told me I over analyzed everything.
Then the noon meeting topic was "How Important Is It?" Of course my answer was EVERYTHING IS IMPORTANT!

These thoughts set the stage for entering a very negative mood.

Although Saturday's OA meeting was very good, the afternoon and evening's activities continued to increase my foul/down/sad/angry/fearful mood.
My husband and I attended a memorial service for a 20 yr. old son of a friend who committed suicide. The service was very long and by the time we went to the parent's home I was "starving." Needless to say I overate and ate things I don't usually have. More anger at myself.

This morning's walk with my husband continued to fuel my emtions. I won't go into it but if I were playing my "if only" tapes, it would be very long.

Now you know I'm not perfect, have huge issues around how things should be done, and get cranky and annoyed.

Thank you for letting me vent and hopefully to practice Step 11 after I finish this post.

• Reply #1 11/02/09  6:27am
  
  JavaFirst
  HUGS I'm glad you posted.
• Reply #2 11/02/09  8:57am
  
  Ziporah
  Yes, I am glad you posted your rant and rave and I am sorry it caused you to go through a bad time but nowhere did you indicate you started to overeat which for me is just so positive - you show me its okay to go ballistic without it sending me to food. You really didn't deserve an idiotic remark like that - personally I can do without people who think they are doing me a favour by telling me something that may or may not be true. To me everything is important and I like to call it "attention to detail" which is a highly desirable attribute. Thank you for leading this group in the way you do because I can see here how every person, every post and every discussion is important to you. Hugs.
• Reply #3 11/02/09  9:33am
  
  BubblesDavey
  Thank you. It really helped to post my rant. I am better now. And November being Step 11, I will return to prayer and meditation.
  Thank you again.
• Reply #4 11/05/09  7:19am
  
  seventieskid
  Glad your feeling better. My counsellor reminds me to invite God/HP into my anger, if i get angry I usually turn my back on God/HP because of the shame anger makes me feel. Keep posting, it's a healthy way of managing anger. I really value the posts you make. thanks Bubbles
• Reply #5 11/05/09  9:55am
  
  BubblesDavey
  I am so much better since I posted that message. Why? I reached out and was honest, not only on this site but to dear friends in program.
  Therapy appointment helped too. Prayers worked and getting into program literature. Thanks for your comment.
• Reply #6 11/06/09  3:04pm
  
  Akie
  Your honesty is always appreciated. I'm probably due for a good rant myself :) It does feel good to get it all out and this is a great way to do it.
• Reply #7 11/07/09  10:13am
  
  chrish511
  I am so glad that you came here to us.

This group and its members use the Twelve Steps to deal with all aspects of eating disorders/diseases.