Jcurly

apology

Posted on 05/24/08, 01:46 am

I want to acknowledge that this group was as much for me as anyone else, & I have not given myself the attention I needed. I started reading this book & immediately could see its impact on me & my life. I was excited & inspired to share that with each of you. Then I hit a deeper place in my depression. A place I know would have been deeper & darker than it was had I not started this journey. But my depression was real & very difficult. I had stopped reading & thus stopped posting.
I may be the only person reading these posts but then I didnâ??t do this for that reason. However, I have experienced many things including excitement when I began to share & learn from others. I was receiving a lot of strength from having a reason to organize & provide this for all, including me.
Well I can see the light, I still canâ??t see how far out the â??end of tunnelâ?? is, but I believe it is out there somewhere & I canâ??t just lay here waiting. It isnâ??t going to come to me I have to go to it!

So, I have my book I have gone back a few pages & am getting things set for Chapter 3â?¦
I guess it is ok to stop on a long journey to re-inventory resources, evaluate & gather strength.

• Reply #1 06/05/08  9:27am
  
  Jenn17
  I completely understand what you are saying...I, too, have been denying it, but am really in a deep, dark place right now. I thought that I had reconciled all my past feelings of failure, and moving forward, believed that I could handle whatever curveballs were thrown my way...but I realize now that this is not the case. I am not ready to face things b/c depression is overshadowing everything in my life. What I am saying is - I don't think you need to apologize for doing what YOU need to do to take care of YOU!!!! That is a perfectly reasonable thing to do! (And I, too, have taken a break from reading the book...again, depression clouded my very existence...)
• Reply #2 06/10/08  8:51pm
  
  SueCQ
  Jules, we are al going through our own personal turmoils. I have been going through one myself these past few weeks. It is normal and very understood. You know how much I love and support you. What get's me through is knowing that each of you are here for me. We all need to hang in there, sunnier days are coming.
  
• Reply #3 06/11/08  11:18am
  
  laraM
  No need to apologize. I put the book down, too. I am hoping to pick it up again soon. We are all here for each other and can discuss the book when the time is right. Don't put more pressure on yourself.

The idea for this group grew as a desire to change our focus, heal our spirits and awaken our true purpose. Many of us are reading "A New Earth" by Eckart Tolle. It is not a requirement to be reading the book or to keep up with anyone else. The goal is discuss the information & insight with others in the same place! Our stories are different, and we face an array of fertility issues, we share in a common journey - we all desire to be Mommies! This is our purpose here, share & grow.