I haven't been on DS as much this summer, haven't been very supportive or even much of a friend to anyone so my apologies to this group as well as those who consider me a friend.

As some of you know, I did a rapid gain up to my highest weight ever in June and I've struggled and failed to get back where I was... spent weeks floating between 362 and 368, like I couldn't get below that 362. I have finally broken the barrier, dropped down to 355 and the only drastic change is I have eliminated all pork products from my diet. (I never was a big pork eater, but I'd order sausage on pizza, sprinkle bacon bits on eggs or salad, ham on something, occasional kielbasa, etc.) Maybe it was the sodium content, I don't know, but the weight is finally heading down again.

I'm still doing the small meals watching what I eat with what trying to keep my blood sugar levels from drastic highs or lows and since my mother irritates me, I've started writing down every thing I eat on a weekly chart and sealing it into an envelope with the results (weight gain or loss for that week) on the outside so when the next time she gets on me over what she ASSUMES that I must be eating, I can hand her a stack of envelopes, lol. Oh gosh... that drives me NUTS! Why do people assume that because you are fat, you must be eating outrageous quantities or scarfing down loaves of bread? Yeah, I'm just sitting around eating bon-bons all day, lol.

I do know one of my major obstacles is the lack of adequate exercise, partly due to pain and disability issues and partly due to sheer laziness. But I aint quitting on me so don't quit on you. Maybe this time next year we could be celebrating smaller numbers and better health.