MomOfTiberius

Two full term losses in 11 months

Posted on 09/19/11, 12:41 pm

How do I go on? We lost Ty at 37 weeks on October 15th, 2010, he was stillborn for unknown reasons. We knew in May that our rainbow would most likely not survive but we chose to carry him anyways and at 36 1/2 weeks we got to meet him. He was born on Monday September 5th, 2011 and fought two hard days before joining his big brother in Heaven on the 7th. I simply do not know if I can go on. The last 18 months I have been pregnant (well with a break of 3 months) but I have nothing to show for it. I can never put my body through this again but I want nothing more then to bring a baby home. I refuse to have to bury a third child though, I refuse to go through another 9 months with no baby to bring home. What do I do now? How do I go on? I just don't have the strength this time around.....

• Reply #1 09/19/11  7:29pm
  
  Kimberly716
  I'm so sorry for your losses. I can't even imagine how you are feeling. I had three 1st trimester losses and those were devastating enough. Do you feel you want to stay with your current OB, or do you think it's time for a change? Does your doctor have any explanations for you as to why you've had two full-term losses? Ask them what they suggest for another pregnancy. Your most recent loss is very new, so please take some time for yourself. My heart goes out to you.
• Reply #2 10/01/11  9:07am
  
  Sadascanbe
  Dear Dear Mom of Tiberius
  
  How utterly devastating and tragic for you. I know how you are feeling as I have suffered two miscarriages this year, loosing twin boys in January (18.5 weeks) and my twin boy and girl 21 Septmeber 2011, both twins I fell naturally with.
  I am thinking just like you, how do i go on? how do I even think about going through this again (I also had a miscarriage in 2009 at 12 weeks) and feel that I've been pregnant as long as an elephant yet i'm yet to bring home an alive baby.
  Stupidest question ever, but how are you? I can't stop crying or feeling like the world is against me or look at others who have been blessed and think, why do you get this and I don't?
  I'd love to talk to you over email etc if you are ever up for it. I'm finding it hard to talk to my other friends who've never experienced this as their platitudes just seems empty.
  
• Reply #3 10/31/11  11:19am
  
  ksw77
  Im so very sorry for you losses. I have had 3 first term losses in the past 7 months, and I can't even imagine how you feel. Im keeping you in my thoughts.
• Reply #4 11/01/11  7:35am
  
  NayVella
  my heart aches after reading this. We laid our twin baby boys Aaron and Brendan to rest on september 5, that day was a painful one for me too. I am really feeling for you, i really am. I hope you have the strength to press on, i know it is so difficult to do and i myself am struggling with grief that comes from multiple losses. - all i can say is dont be afraid to reach out as whether u know ppl personally or not there unfortunately are many people out there in similar situations... its just not fair. XX a huge hug to you sweet.

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