hi everyone!!! i just wanted to vent a little bit. i've returned to my home country after five years of living abroad. it's been two months now and i'm now in the process of looking for a job, and at this point any payable job woul do it for me cuz i feel like such a failure because no one wants me to work for them, maybe i shouldn't feel like that but the rejection feels personal, oh so personal. everytime someone tells me they are looking for personnel now it just feels like they are saying i'm not good enough to work for them or something like that and i try to feel cool about it but it just kills me inside, and i want to work so much, i need to feel useful and productive. how should i feel, what should i think, cuz right now all i'm thinking is about causing injuries on myself, i'm on a real self destructive path everytime i listen to them say "we don't need anyone right now". anyway, if any of you has something to say please help me, i'm not strong enough