miahugsandp...

Exodus

Posted on 10/20/09, 02:05 pm

I am reading about the way we are sometimes brought out of egypt and still we want to go back into bondage.It all startedthe other day when I was thinking about going back to London as I don,t seem to be able to settle here in Ashford.Then God said to me read about how the peaple where lead out of bondage and what they had in store for them,how God saw them through the tough times and how they where blessed.Yet still they wanted to go back.God has brought me out of a city that is so rough and danguarous into a place that is peacfull and I have a lovely house ,garden,town and have freedom to walk around in the dark.The place I came from is full of stabbings ,shootings,murder,drugs,and muggings.So why do I want to go back?Because the old me is still there,the me who was a drunk,a prostitue,a drug taker,and adulter.
The old has past way and I am now a new person,no more of what was.
15 years ago I gave my life to the Lord 15 years ago I was no more a drunk or any of the other things.I trusted God so much,I had faith of a lion,so why am I like this today?Where has all my faith gone?my relationship with God gone?
My trust where has that gone?
Yes I am like the ones coming out of egypt and wanted to go back,but now see why,I just pray that from now on that I can get something back.
I just felt that I should share this with you.Hope it was not to long lol.

• Reply #1 10/20/09  5:34pm
  
  mammy
  My dear Mia, Leaving the familiar is hard. As bad as it was letting it go to something else is hard. You sound homesick. God has blessed you with a wonderful place. The quietness, the beauty. Rest Mia. You have hard a hard life and seen some of the worse conditions of humanity. I think of this as a retreat for you to be restored. This is a time for you to get quiet with the Lord. He has never left you. Don't allow your feelings to tell you otherwise. This will be a time to press in and allow faith to grow in your heart. Hide His word in your heart and get strong in the Lord. He will recall to you many verses as you just abide in His love for this season. Only God knows how long you will be there but trust that the steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord and see what God has for you there.
  
  I bet it is so quaint, and beautiful. Maybe you will share pictures with us? God walks with you Mia,. In the crisp cool morning, or walking through your garden, or looking at the starry sky at night,. not hampered by city lights. You will know Him as Elohim the Creator of heaven and earth. You will know Him as Jehovah Shalom your peace, you shall know Him as Jehovah Rohi your Shepherd, Jehovah Rapha your healer, and Jehovah Jireh the one who sees all of your needs and provides for them. Bless you my friend and rest in God's love. Donna
  
  
• Reply #2 10/20/09  6:18pm
  
  mammy
  For you Mia! Does this take us back?
  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-NH...
  
  I come to the garden alone
  While the dew is still on the roses
  And the voice I hear, falling on my ear
  The Son of God discloses
  
  And He walks with me and He talks with me
  And He tells me I am His own
  And the joy we share as we tarry there
  None other has ever known
  
  He speaks and the sound of His voice
  Is so sweet, the birds hush their singing
  And the melody that He gave to me
  Within my heart is ringing
  
  And He walks with me and He talks with me
  And He tells me I am His own
  And the joy we share as we tarry there
  None other has ever known
  
  I'd stay in the garden with Him
  'Tho the night around me be falling
  And He bids me go, through the voice of woe
  His voice to me is calling
  
  And He walks with me and He talks with me
  And He tells me I am His own
  And the joy we share as we tarry there
  None other has ever known
• Reply #3 10/21/09  11:36am
  
  miahugsandp...
  That is just so lovely,thank you Mammy for your words to me.I feel like God is now taking me to another level,I was wacthing the God channel last night and each person had a word for me.I have felt this feeling before and it is all about being alone with God and sactification to Him to go higher.Love you and thank you my sister.

We are a family of peaple who have sufferd abuse of all sorts,from sexuall,physical,mentall,or through illness.We pray for each other,laugh and cry together.Our aim is to help and encourage ,to over come there fears and live a better life.