I wish someone could come up with a way to help me to heal properly,last year 6wks before christmas my husband told me he had been e-mailing his whore for almost a year, after 25+yrs my husband took my heart and smashed it to bits he walked out on me after telling me i love you but i,m not in love with you?? so he went, within a week he had brought his whore over to live with him,to say i was devastated would be a very big understatement,however it has now been almost 4 month,s and i have spent alot of time in hospital,i have now met alot of new friends and for once in a very long time i can finally say i,m now happier alone than married and misrable,then i was hit with the two pieces of new,s one that he had got rid of the whore cuz she was too firey!! then he lost his job,i can honestly say i no longer love him or what him back,we have a son who is 21yrs he lives with me,now all of a sudden he is asking after me and basically feeling sorry for himself,our son has told me not to be too nasty in my divorce petition,i told him,it is between your father and me and not you,however i am terrified my son is going to end up hating me because i,m divorcing his father.
I have done so well i was healing,i was living again {Still am] but now i feel he is trying to ruin all i,ve done in moving on with my life,i loved him so very much but he killed any love i felt for him,last year he was callinmg me terrible names and blaming me for whatever was bugging him that day he also blamed me for his hypotention! i went from being a confident no nosense woman to a pathetic clingy woman [the one thing i swore id never be] but my old man was clever he over the years turned me into someone he wanted me to be,then he broke my heart yet i was suppost to be his friend! well we split and i was starting to heal again,i was coming back to the person i once was,now i won,t put up with anyone upsetting me or hurting me,yet along he come,s telling his story of woe and i feel he is trying to worm his way back into my life,when i was snacthed from the streets and kept in a lock up for 72+ hrs he never knew exactly what they did to me,but he kept asking i just couldn,t tell him,now yet again my nightmares have returned and i am in hospital with a blood clot in my leg and twice now i have shouted out fighting the nurse,s and upsetting the other patience on the ward,i feel so terrible that i,m too scared to close my eyes in case i scream in my sleep again,i,m scared that these nightmares have returned ,is there anyone out there who can help me with maybe a little advice? i see the councellor twice a week but i still cannot talk about the things some of them animals did to me! i keep feeling that i will never heal again i feel so bloody weak i thought i was doing so well,clearly not anymore please can someone anyone help with some advice?