Can someone tell me will i ever get over this living hell? yes i saw countless councellor,s and shrink,s [still am!] yet i,m still getting the nightmares!, i,m literally re living what they did to me! i am also cutting in frustration,i thought i,d got rid of all that but no such luck! i,ve had to be re stiched three times today and i,m now watching what i eat,if it,s too much then i get rid of it,what the hell is happerning to me? can someone tell me cuz the bloody shrink can,t seem to find out why it,s come back? some bloody shrink hey? i,ve just come outta hospital and to be honest everytime i get discharged i vow never to go back,but i can,t cuz i,m having chemo!! my son is over the moon that i,m home as i am, but i would rather stay awake for days and days than have to go to sleep,cuz i can,t get these nightmares outta my dream,s,what is happerning,am i being punished for something? cuz if i am i,d love to know what it is!,my son had to wake me this afternon [i went for a nap} cuz i was shouting and hitting out in my sleep,i hurt my son and didn,t realise i,d hurt him,i feel really bad [he,s 20yrs] but i feel really bad that i hurt my own son,can anyone tell me how to stop these nightmares,its bad enough that i went through it all,but to keep re-living it is killing me,if i,m honest i feel like stopping all the chemo and taking all the morphine then my nightmares would stop wouldn,t they? please any advice is welcome