My husband and his whore have been living together now for just over two week,s now,and strangly i don,t feel as bad as i did this time last week,is it because i,m just tired of all of the bitterness and nasty little comments or is ths a lead up to more pain? all my life i have fought just to be able to be happy and content,yet whenever i seek happiness something always goe,s wrong? i,d be a liar if i told you i have stopped loving my husband because i still love him very much but i can say that i would never ever have him back as husband and wife,he has hurt me and he has hurt our son,he always told me no matter what callum is first and formost ,which i too agree with,however whenever callum makes plan,s to meet his father,his dad is always busy,so much for putting your son first!,callum won man of the match [he plays football or soccer as the american,s call it]and he rang his dad to tell him,he came home upset and told me,i may be 20yr but i thought dad would want to know how well i,d done,i could see cal was dissappointedand i am very annoyed at my ex husband and hurt that this once very gentle man was a cold hearted stranger,i had a letter delivered and it was addressed to me but was for my husband so i took the mail to his work and he seemed ok,until he asked me what i was doing? i told him truthfully that i was seeing my solicitor about getting this sham over with,yet i feel really bad about telling him yet he has caused all this,he,s the one who spoilt our christmas and broke both mine and my our son,s heart by moving out so he could shack up with his whore! yet why do i feel so bad when i haven,t done anything wrong? he,s the one who,s caused all this pain,not me so why do i feel like this?