I find myself eating more and more when I'm full. I hate it.
Let me give some back story. First off, I'm 23. When I was 16 I became preganat with my daughter. I weighed about 105 maybe 110 when i got pregnant. I was told that since I was underweight when I became pregnant, I would have to get to my "ideal body weight" of 120 plus gain the usual 25-35 lbs. Well, I kinda went over board. I weighed about 170 the day I gave birth. I kept think that since I was young (17 at the time) the weight would just fall off. WRONG!!! I did however manage to get down to 140. However, just as I was starting to get confident and feeling good about myself again, I got pregnant again (I was 20 at the time). This time I i goo on the weight thing; I only weighed 159 when I had my second daughter. At my 6 wk check up I had lost it all PLUS 4 more pounds making my weight 136. I was super happy. Then, last year in October, I had a miscarriage. I was so depressed that food became my best friend. I put on 35 pounds. After I can out of the stuper I was in I started to slowly lose some of it, only to have another miscarriage this March. I now weigh 185!
I cant stop eating. I feel like I eat all the time; day and night. The thing is, I dont. I wake up at 8 with my girls, feed them, dress them, play with them and totally forget to eat. I usually dont remember to eat until well into the afternoon. I usually have something small for lunch, like a sandwich or some fruit. Then at dinner, I pig out. If I made chicken tacos (my fave), I'll eat like 6 or 7 plus beans. Then Ill have like 2 more after my BF goes to work (he works graveyard).
I wanna stop! He and I want a baby together so bad (I'm divorced) and I feel like the reason I keep losing our babies is because I'm overweight. I'm willing to try anything. Thank you fro listening.
Big hugs
-Jamie