dontTRUSTalice

EXTREME cycling

Posted on 09/10/09, 02:55 pm

Over the past year, progressively, I have ended up here - the place where I am now only sleeping 33 hours a week because of the manic highs. Unfortunately, because of the extremity of it all, I am unable to STOP the cycling! It's almost like a sudden HIGH hits me for no reason, no trigger, outside of getting a few hours of consistent sleep. I pulled 72 hours, slept for 2 consecutive night, 8 hours each, and today - TADA! No reason, no trigger....the 'feelling really good/inspired" feeling hit, adrenaline shoots through and I am well on my way to another round.

HAS ANYONE EVER BEEN THIS BAD?
Just really curious. I have restrictive anorexia and am down to 94 pounds. The HIGHS, the adrenaline, all contribute to the not wanting to eat....I physically can't AFFORD to keep going this way. I'm actually scared. I have a 15 year old son who is watching every step of this and has told me i am killing myself.
I just can't STOP! it's not that I miss the HIGH, either.,..i can't seem to get away from them.
HELP??

• Reply #1 09/19/09  1:53pm
  
  cath04
  Hi, I don't have rapid cycling but my partner is on here and does. At present she is cycling very fast again. Psychiatrist thinks the medication he put her on is making it worse, so is taking rapidly off it and going to see what happens. She was on Topomax and it worked brilliantly however one of the inactive ingredients in it Aspartame caused major problems (non-epileptic abscences 40-50 a day!), so had to come off it. A different version of it uses sucralose so he is thinking of putting her on it, so hopefully things will settle for her.
  
  I understand what your saying as I'm watching her cycling and know it's not good, she also gets the `not wanting to eat' because of the highs and lows, but fortunately she is very overweight so has some lee way on what she looses.
  
  She also has anxiety disorder and when bad takes it out on herself and only this week I had to restrain her when she `blew'.
  
  Feel free to seek her out on here - she goes by janeywom. It does help when you can talk to someone who understands where you are coming from.
  
  
• Reply #2 09/19/09  3:02pm
  
  searching4D
  I'm sure you have heard this before, you need meds! I was exactly like you, no matter what you do you, you will never be able to stop on your own. I was very leary of the meds because of a bad numbing experiance while on them, but have now found doctors, therapists, joined mental health group, AA, etc. Doing everything I can to stay leve and to understand Bipolarl. I am on Lithium and Seraquel, and it is working for me. Go to ER and get help, keep searching for the right people, don't give up! I wish you the best of luck!
• Reply #3 09/29/09  2:04pm
  
  Tadeo
  My 2 cents.
  On top of what had been said, in the mean time, find something useful to do with that unavoidable 'spare time'.
  It will do you not good to watch TV or drawn in your self pity and guilt. Stand up, study, write, read, chat, reach, . do something that consumes the time positively and also have a good outcome.
  
  
  

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