lisalyvonne...

bouncing like dd cups on a trampoline

Posted on 08/03/08, 10:12 pm

I wish I could think of a better description but I can't.My moods are cycling so fast I can't think,eat,sleep,function ect.....I am being such a B**CH that I want to tell myself to shut up.I am mad one minute,relaxed the next.I then get all sad and think of all the reasons the entire world sucks.Then I feel all optimistic and think my life is going to get better every minute.
I just don't have a clue how to handle this without going back on meds which I KNOW make me feel like a prisoner in my own head.I am not even able to think like myself on the meds.So I guess there is no help for me I just needed to vent.

• Reply #1 08/04/08  9:28am
  
  aheadcase
  Sorry you are feeling this way. Mixed states are terrible. Maybe you should call your p-doc?
• Reply #2 08/04/08  1:21pm
  
  lisalyvonne...
  my p doc just wants me to do the thorazine shuffle and I can't deal with all of the meds he perscribes makes me feel all wacked out and I cant take care of my kids or nothing so I just suffer through the bad days
  thank you for caring I am feeling alot better at this moment in time
• Reply #3 08/10/08  4:21am
  
  cath04
  Hi my wife was like this at one point, rapidly cycling from one extreme to another so fast I couldn't keep up with her.
  
  I don't know what medication you have been on in the pass, but our psychiatrist put her on Epilim (Sodium Valporate) which is in fact an anti-seizure medication but also works with rapid cycling mood disorder and wow the difference. Yes she still sometimes get the cycling, but normally they are a lot slower and more manageable and nowhere near as many as she used to have.
  
  She has just been through a stressful time in hospital and yes there was some cycling, but boy before the medication she would have been everywhere.
  
  She still can function and doesn't make her feel any different for being on it.
  
  Hope you can get yourself sorted, from what I saw of my wife, it's not nice.
  
  
• Reply #4 10/20/08  11:12am
  
  coden23
  Can't say anything except I can TOTALLY relate. Being inside of my head is like sitting in a concrete room where hundreds of rubber balls are fiercely bouncing in every direction off of ceiling, floor, walls....
• Reply #5 12/07/08  7:41am
  
  grimmybear
  I'm going through this now too. Only I'm taking my meds as prescribed & now they are not working. I always tell the dr.'s that the more manic I get, the Rx's lose their efficacy. Of course, they never believe me & think I'm drug seeking or stupid. I actually was a psychology major in college for a while...anyway, now I've got to call dr. & see how he wants to increase my meds or move up my dr appt. So far the energy is great, doing lots of housework, putting up the tree, cleaning the dang garage. But I will get aggitated soon....argh!!!
• Reply #6 12/12/08  3:00am
  
  jmariah001
  I was aggitated yesterday for a good part of the day and never really found out why. I was glad my counselor finally agreed with me when I told her I believed that I was a rapid cycler, because so far no body else has. I can be really happy one minute and sad and crying the next, or I can go from being happy to extremely angry for no apparent reason. It kinda scares me sometimes, because my moods can be so unpredictable it makes it hard to actually plan anything. I hope to someday find a combination of meds that works for me to help me better control these dang mood swings.
• Reply #7 12/29/08  2:23am
  
  lisalyvonne...
  well atleast I am down in the dumps on a mostly full time basis right now ...but thats a not a very bright side now is it peeps
• Reply #8 04/25/09  6:02pm
  
  ciaociao
  I can relate too and I am so sorry to hear that your having to go through it! I have not found meds that make it go away, but I mixture of Lamital and Lithium in very low doses work for me (Lithium 450mg, Lamictal 400 mg). The low dosage makes for minimal side effects. I still rapid cycle, but the highs and lows are bearable - I can still function fairly well. Also, for extreme ups when I am also a complete B** I find Klonopin/Clonazepam in .5 to 1mg really effective to take the edge off so I am not irratible. But yes, I get pretty tired, but I only take as needed. But all meds vary by person, so this is just works for me. But I thought I would pass it along for consideration with your p doc.

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