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How it all started.
Posted on 05/25/09, 01:36 am
I'm new hopefully I can encourage others and also receive the encouragement :)
I am curious to see why and how you guys all started binging and purging. I now accept the fact that I was anorexic.
On my best friend's birthday, she decided to take all of us to this popular dessert place. Not to kill the mood, i had to order. So~ what i thought was a small piece of cake it came out as this BIG i mean literally a HUG chunk of cake which was SO sweet. Thinking of all the calories and what not, i just couldn't hold it in and not on purpose, it just came out. Feeling so empty, it felt good.
I believe that is when i started to get the hang of it and after eating, i would feed the toilette. It has been now 3 years and now it got serious to the point when i am doing it twice a day and binge every second day. because trying to purge everyday is actually impossible. It just doesn't come out. (which by the way makes you feel more stressed and angry after you fail to get it all out)
Hopefully everyone can write how they started and want to feel that I don't have to do this alone
I am curious to see why and how you guys all started binging and purging. I now accept the fact that I was anorexic.
On my best friend's birthday, she decided to take all of us to this popular dessert place. Not to kill the mood, i had to order. So~ what i thought was a small piece of cake it came out as this BIG i mean literally a HUG chunk of cake which was SO sweet. Thinking of all the calories and what not, i just couldn't hold it in and not on purpose, it just came out. Feeling so empty, it felt good.
I believe that is when i started to get the hang of it and after eating, i would feed the toilette. It has been now 3 years and now it got serious to the point when i am doing it twice a day and binge every second day. because trying to purge everyday is actually impossible. It just doesn't come out. (which by the way makes you feel more stressed and angry after you fail to get it all out)
Hopefully everyone can write how they started and want to feel that I don't have to do this alone
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Reply #1 06/14/09 8:10pm
I started last year. I was living on my own and after months of heavily restricting; my cousin decided that we would go out to dinner every Wednesday. I thought, oh crap, all this weight I've lost is going to be piled back on. The first night we went out I felt so full up and so guilty for what I had eaten, I made myself sick, and so it went on every week. I thought I didn't really have a problem because it was only once a week. No big deal. Then I went on holiday for a month and there was no chance of doing any purging because there were always people around. I felt guilty but did a bit of exercise and when I got home, I found out I put on 6 pounds. Then, after a really emotional time I restricted again, for 2 months. During that time I lost 12 pounds. Then I went back to binging and purging way more than before. It still wasn't a really big problem to me. I'd heard way worse stories than mine. Its weird because I told myself I could stop this at any time... when I tried to stop... it was too difficult. -
Reply #2 07/14/09 2:34am
I got adicted by the emptieness feeling..... -
Reply #3 10/28/09 10:58am
I someime think I binge in order to make a problem that I can eliminate immediately.... Probably because there are problems in my life that cannot be fixed immediatley. In about an hour, I can binge, purge and feel that I have "solved" that problem. I can get quick relief, by creating a problem to "solve". How stupid, right?
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