Really. I have disconnected abstract dreams, annoying dreams, sometimes nice good dreams. Usually no nightmares...until recently. I have had 2 so far this week.

#1: My husband died. He was in the hospital for something, I thought he would get better; I mean, I left him one evening after he was joking and laughing with myself, his mother, and a church pastor. So I LEFT him to go home and sleep. Next morning, they say he died. After that things felt surreal and I was very angry at God. Woke up in a panic.

#2: This was just this last night: I dreamed I found a nest of black widow spiders. I went to kill them by simply smashing them with a stick, but it turned out there were more than I thought and one of them bit me, on the left thigh. Only I didn't know it yet. Enter Special Dream Guest Star Montel Williams (I don't watch "Montel" so I don't know what he was doing in my dream?) who says I better go get that pus-filled wound checked out. I was like, "What pus-filled wound? Where? [feeling all over myself rapidly] Did one get me?" and then I felt a boil on my left thigh, looked down, and UGH!--it was GROSS. Woke up in panic.

I don't know why I'm suddenly having actual nightmares. There is nothing bad going on in my life.