Hang in there. Are you in therapy? Are things getting any better at this point? You wrote this about 2 weeks ago. Do you have a supportive family? Sometimes, it's hard to know if you "can't" get better on your own, or if it is that you "won't". Do you know which it is for you? Honestly, WHO would WANT to be sick? When we choose sickness over health, there are lots of underlying reasons that control that decision. So, it's really NOT our choice. But, it IS our choice whether on not to get help and whether or not to ALLOW the help and RECEIVE the help. As you can probably tell, I struggle with similar battles. It's all quite baffling.
Remember, you can't live on just merely HOPING that tomorrow will be a better day. You have to take action to that effect. You have to be active in the pursuit of wellness. I should look in the mirror and say these things.
Let me know how you are doing.
Love,
Juliann
Discussion Topic
help me!
Posted on 08/16/09, 12:31 am
I feel like I'm slipping back under the surface of my ED and am too tired to keep my head up anymore. I'm so tired of fighting and dealing with the exhausting ups and downs of ED recovery. At the same time I have so much good in my life going on right now and in the near future that I feel guilty for feeling the way I do. I want to give up and completely give in and engage in any behaviors that come to mind...but I don't want that feeling of "oh sh** , I think I'm dying" to return either. I guess I just have to tell myself tomorrows a new day and hope it's a better one...sigh....
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Reply #1 08/29/09 10:57pm
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