Hi, I'm just new and only a couple of hours ago I was at an appointment with a psychiatrist in the hospital. So i told her my story and i was really annoyed when she said that she thinks Im giving my ed way too much importance and that i'm really putting myself under so much stress trying to recover. which it kind of makes sense, but then she asked me do i really want to recover and i just couldn't lie, so i told her: no i don't want to. clearly i'm not trying to recover for myself she says. No I says, i'm doing it for my mom and my partner coz they can't stand it anymore.
plus she asks me what else do i like other than food. and i honestly couldn't think of anything!!!
I need to get out of my comfort zone and i need to start accepting myself for who i am, rather than hoping in a future which is just a film in my head with main character me as the perfect woman - perfect size, weight, brains and a perfectly clean house.... i need to come to terms with reality, know myself a little bit better and accepting myself for who i am now.
wish me luck!!!!