When does the pain stop. I am 57 years old and hear all the great stories and see with my own eyes the beautiful relationships other women have with their Mothers. My Mom NEVER has told me she misses me..I have been here in Florida for 8 years..she has clothes me and fed me BUT emotionally hasn't been there.

My Grandmother was my Mom. I have pictures of me and my Grandmother when I was a little girl together NOT ONE of me and my Mommy as a little girl..that is SICK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have memories of me and my Grandmother....spending time, hugging kisses,,,her telling me stories...me spending the night at her home going places with her...NOTHING of me and my Mother...When I was a teen it was my DAD who took me shopping,,,YET my MOM followed me..to see where I was going when I went out and I didnt know..she never trusted me...so at 17 I became pregnant.....chose to have my baby..and the rest of my life has been a living hell.
I am in soooo much emotional pain. I have gone to therapy all my life.....the pain remains.
I am now 57, with a diseased liver from Hepatitis-c..unable to work anymore due to fatigue and pain. I am diabetic..on insulin..fibromyalgia, depression, herniated discs ...etc. my marriage is over..I have been involved with abusers , alcoholics, druggies...Many days I wonder why I was ever born...My mom avoids me now because she feels she cant help and has told my brother she has enough of her own [problems.She abused me emotionally and physically. I remember not understanding why?????

My memories of her are of a very critical, hateful mother...I remember feeling she was very jealous of me...
I was a good kid, I am a very loving sensitive person who loves animals and nature..I have a soft heart..where she is so hard and nasty...I love cats and one day she told me she had a dream that I brought home a kitten..she proceeded to tell me she took the kitten and drowned it ! Can you imagine this????? Knowing I love cats and animals and rescue them..why would she tell me this???

I could go on and on...just the tip of the ice berg..but enough for now.

Cant say I am happy to see so many other women like me who hurt...I'll just say..I am glad i found you all and I extend my hand out to yours..in sisterhood...and friendship with love..........

Serenity55/Deb