I lost my father @ a very early age...7 yrs old..not knowing what death really was. Being that he lived out of town @ the time, I just thought that he was gone and would be back when he could. but as I got older and I noticed that he hadn't been around in awhile, I questioned my mom @ the time- who still thought that i was too young to understand what had happened. I'm 40 yrs old now and @ the age of 25 yrs old, I broke down terribly and decided to go back and try to remember everything I could about him. The few memories that I do have have are so special to me, being a child and not understanding has put me into a depression- that now that i'm having to dealing with it thru counseling- which is a good thing. Now that bothe my parents are gone I have anxiety issues of being alone, i suffer from depression and panic attacks. I praying that the counseling really helps me release what i've been afraid to face for years. I'm missing my dad, mom and aunt (who was like a sister to me). I'll keep everyone poseted on my recovery. Thanks for the lending ears/