I have friends who have I think are interested in the idea of cutting. They keep watching videos on youtube called "emo kid cutting himself" once one wrote a poem about cutting and they only see it as a hardcore drama. Like they only see the movies like "thirteen" and think its cool. The poem one friend wrote about was so off about how it feels. I really don't think they cut themselfs cause when I hear them talking about it their idea's on what being a cutter is like is way off. I mean they are only interested in the attention seeking drama. And they talk about it like they undertand because "they read a poem about it'. I love my two best friends but they fact that they only see it as drama offends me. And they have no idea that while they're talking about these ideas a cutter is sitting right next to them. I can't blame them, they don''t know. No one knows why, when I hit my hip or thigh on the underside of the table and I cry out and walk off to the bathroom no one knows Im going to go make sure Im not going to start bleeding. A girl who I know cuts, we are not that close but we talk and hang out at school sometimes, she dosen't know why I understand (I told her I had a friend who cuts) she doesn't know that she's not alone and Im right there going though the same thing.My mom doesn't really know why I go to my room or the bathroom when im upset. My mom calls me down stairs while im cutting and she has no Idea what im doing. My mom and friends think I only like jeans and thats why they never see my legs. My brother walks in while im cutting my thigh and I pull a blanket over myself and he thinks Im masterbating. I know I don't want anyone to know but Im so sick of no one understanding that I just want to scream "Im cutting myself!" Just so someone knows and it doesn't have to be a secret, but I can't cause Im so scared. I just need someone who knows that I can talk to about it.